Yvessa
Well-Known Member
So here I am two years out. And I have mixed feelings. Relief that I'm still losing, and sadness that I'm not at target. Proud of my achievements, but fearful of regain. But most of the time I am happy and grateful.
Me and my daughter sat together this morning and we wrote a list of all the things we could think of that was good about my weightloss. We ran out of paper! But above all, life is normal.
There was a time just after my op where I didn't imagine ever feeling normal again. or not having to eat and drink on command...but it gets easier. And at the same time it gets harder, because life does go back to normal. The stresses and strains of life do drive you back towards food, and each situation can turn either way. I continue to work on my head and my heart, to try and find better ways of dealing with these situations. Some times I win. Sometimes the old habits win.
Slimming world has been amazing for me. It was something I tried briefly preop, but could eat so much then it didn't work. Now it works very well. I do go to group and the support I get there is just amazing. It makes me feel focused and stops the diet fatigue. And it helps me to stop the guilt based binging as nothing is banned.
I have enormous support, both here and at home, and I cannot begin to thank the people who have been there for me - they know who they are! Every comment, every like, every positive text lifts me up and keeps me going. So a thank you to those people.
I still have 4 stone to healthy BMI. 3 stone to my personal target. I have some loose skin, but no medical issues because of it. I consider myself extremely lucky. I go back to the gym after easter so hopefully can tone some of it.
One thing Frankie said, and I think is so true - this could be any one of you. I am just that bit further out. So dare to dream people.
Me and my daughter sat together this morning and we wrote a list of all the things we could think of that was good about my weightloss. We ran out of paper! But above all, life is normal.
There was a time just after my op where I didn't imagine ever feeling normal again. or not having to eat and drink on command...but it gets easier. And at the same time it gets harder, because life does go back to normal. The stresses and strains of life do drive you back towards food, and each situation can turn either way. I continue to work on my head and my heart, to try and find better ways of dealing with these situations. Some times I win. Sometimes the old habits win.
Slimming world has been amazing for me. It was something I tried briefly preop, but could eat so much then it didn't work. Now it works very well. I do go to group and the support I get there is just amazing. It makes me feel focused and stops the diet fatigue. And it helps me to stop the guilt based binging as nothing is banned.
I have enormous support, both here and at home, and I cannot begin to thank the people who have been there for me - they know who they are! Every comment, every like, every positive text lifts me up and keeps me going. So a thank you to those people.
I still have 4 stone to healthy BMI. 3 stone to my personal target. I have some loose skin, but no medical issues because of it. I consider myself extremely lucky. I go back to the gym after easter so hopefully can tone some of it.
One thing Frankie said, and I think is so true - this could be any one of you. I am just that bit further out. So dare to dream people.
