2nd chance Jo
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So I got listed for bypass or the mini this week whatever they decide on and it should be next month. I've made no secret I'm terrified of surgery, of something going wrong, during or afterwards and the worries I have for my family if something did! I know I'm not alone here I know we all worry but I can only speak for myself and how I'm feeling. One thing I have picked up on is where it's mentioned people on here say they have lost weight in the past but always put it back on. Well I have never lost it, now losing 2 and a half stone with slimming world (I know a lot more to go) I feel good, like maybe I should try.
I was originally getting a balloon as my weight was high, now although it's higher than it still originally was even with the 2 & half loss (first referred before getting pregnant 3years ago) they said that would still be balloon first and now instead done a complete u turn and straight to surgery. I think I'm so aware how dangerous it is for me this weight as it was drummed into me before it's got me feeling like this. I'm so confused and I don't want to discard bypass but if me waiting longer tryin to at least get some more weight off for surgery makes me less of a risk I'm thinking I should ask if maybe I could try that? Although yes I know there still risks.
Like I said I'm so confused It's constantly on my mind, im bursting out in tears a lot, I'm snapping at my poor family and today I was actually physically sick from worrying, am I just not in right headspace psychologically?
Also I joint slimmingworld mid August to lose weight for op, having the seminar first appointment end of June they quoted 12 - 18month for op it was dramaticlly reduced to only 6months, in my mind I didnt mind this and wanted the time to lose some weight and mentally prepare myself.
Sorry to go on I know I'm like a broken record when I have posted on here. Just stressed!
I was originally getting a balloon as my weight was high, now although it's higher than it still originally was even with the 2 & half loss (first referred before getting pregnant 3years ago) they said that would still be balloon first and now instead done a complete u turn and straight to surgery. I think I'm so aware how dangerous it is for me this weight as it was drummed into me before it's got me feeling like this. I'm so confused and I don't want to discard bypass but if me waiting longer tryin to at least get some more weight off for surgery makes me less of a risk I'm thinking I should ask if maybe I could try that? Although yes I know there still risks.
Like I said I'm so confused It's constantly on my mind, im bursting out in tears a lot, I'm snapping at my poor family and today I was actually physically sick from worrying, am I just not in right headspace psychologically?
Also I joint slimmingworld mid August to lose weight for op, having the seminar first appointment end of June they quoted 12 - 18month for op it was dramaticlly reduced to only 6months, in my mind I didnt mind this and wanted the time to lose some weight and mentally prepare myself.
Sorry to go on I know I'm like a broken record when I have posted on here. Just stressed!