If it's any consolation, my surgery is in 11 days time and when I think about it I get that panicky 'dropping' feeling in my stomach, my heart races and I have a strong urge to phone up and cancel!
I am absolutely
terrified of needles, hospitals and most of all, being out of control so the thought of being put under anesthetic puts me into a complete tailspin.
When I read posts from pre-oppers who are excited about surgery I just can't get my head round it. I'm
dreading it.
So what gets you through? Well for me, it's basically avoiding any thought of the surgery and just concentrating on the weight dropping off and my new life. To help in that, at the moment I tend to avoid the threads where things have gone wrong and concentrate on the majority which are success stories. Realistically I know they'll probably end up sedating me to pre-op as I have a bit of a history of freaking out about things I'm scared of (e.g. I'm terrified of flying and have walked off about half a dozen flights, junking in business trips and paid holidays!)
There's all levels of nerves - some have little to none, some moderate and some are bricking themselves. It's all normal I think - just concentrate on the benefits of losing weight which far outweigh the risks.