Rinata Rak
Member
Hi everyone,
Sorry in advance for the long post!!
I've had a very reflective and sombre day today and finally been slapped in the face with the biggest reality check EVER!!!
Coming up very nearly to 2 months post Op, I am slowly but surely coming to terms with my sleeve and my new way of life and having been self funding, even in these early stages of uncertainty I believe that I have made the right decision to lose weight and lead a much healthier life, and that it is money well spent!!
Finally plucked up the courage to go to the dentist and have had the shock of my life!!! My teeth have become so bad that I will probably end up losing so many now and will end up spending another fortune to fix this major problem. I had no idea that things were THIS bad!!!!
For all the years of having my biggest weakness... Chocolates!! Years of drinking diet coke, irregular meal times to name but a few bad habits, I can't believe how or why I had let myself go so much and ended up in this state. All the years I kept thinking that although I was overweight, I was active and fit and that all I had to do was lose weight as the rest of me was fine!!! I was only fooling myself!!
I'm sure that some people reading this can relate to having other severe medical problems that has been linked to being overweight, for example, not being able to conceive, and developing other diseases etc etc.
How the hell did we allow ourselves to get to the stage where we didn't have any self worth (and perhaps self control) and ignored the signs and advice of loved ones for us to carry on with these bad habits which have affected our lives so drastically???
Now to try and undo all the bad habits and decisions I have made, I need to go through so much stuff physically, mentally, emotional and financially to try and put it all right. I know for me now I have to find the strength and dig really deep to now move on and deal with life in a more suitable way than harming or punishing myself (and my body) as I've done in the past!!!
I know we all have our own personal stories, tragedies and consequences of past actions that has brought us all here but I can't believe how we have overlooked the most important person in our lives... OURSELVES and just let it all consume us the way it has.
Is there anyone out there that feels the same?!
Still, looking at the positive side, better late than never to deal with it!!
Have a good week everyone and apologies again for the long post!! Xx
Sorry in advance for the long post!!
I've had a very reflective and sombre day today and finally been slapped in the face with the biggest reality check EVER!!!
Coming up very nearly to 2 months post Op, I am slowly but surely coming to terms with my sleeve and my new way of life and having been self funding, even in these early stages of uncertainty I believe that I have made the right decision to lose weight and lead a much healthier life, and that it is money well spent!!
Finally plucked up the courage to go to the dentist and have had the shock of my life!!! My teeth have become so bad that I will probably end up losing so many now and will end up spending another fortune to fix this major problem. I had no idea that things were THIS bad!!!!
For all the years of having my biggest weakness... Chocolates!! Years of drinking diet coke, irregular meal times to name but a few bad habits, I can't believe how or why I had let myself go so much and ended up in this state. All the years I kept thinking that although I was overweight, I was active and fit and that all I had to do was lose weight as the rest of me was fine!!! I was only fooling myself!!
I'm sure that some people reading this can relate to having other severe medical problems that has been linked to being overweight, for example, not being able to conceive, and developing other diseases etc etc.
How the hell did we allow ourselves to get to the stage where we didn't have any self worth (and perhaps self control) and ignored the signs and advice of loved ones for us to carry on with these bad habits which have affected our lives so drastically???
Now to try and undo all the bad habits and decisions I have made, I need to go through so much stuff physically, mentally, emotional and financially to try and put it all right. I know for me now I have to find the strength and dig really deep to now move on and deal with life in a more suitable way than harming or punishing myself (and my body) as I've done in the past!!!
I know we all have our own personal stories, tragedies and consequences of past actions that has brought us all here but I can't believe how we have overlooked the most important person in our lives... OURSELVES and just let it all consume us the way it has.
Is there anyone out there that feels the same?!
Still, looking at the positive side, better late than never to deal with it!!
Have a good week everyone and apologies again for the long post!! Xx