Jealousy :(

[minxtress]

You are all an inspiration to me just in the sheer patience and determination everyones got!!
I have thought about this surgery for a good year or so and only just started the ball rolling so a huuuuuuuggee long way to go but reading this site most days really helps me.
I think its only normal to feel pangs of jealousy, its not bad thoughts against the lucky opper its just bad thoughts against ourselves and wish it was me syndrome.
Im sat here with a loan agreement debating whether to sign it im that desperate....but its a secured loan and being a single parent im sh*t scared incase the band id have would fail and id be fat, miserable and in a whole load of debt and then in the same position as vamps where doc wont give me a bypass.
God its a headmesser!!

 

[Fuffs]

You are all an inspiration to me just in the sheer patience and determination everyones got!!
I have thought about this surgery for a good year or so and only just started the ball rolling so a huuuuuuuggee long way to go but reading this site most days really helps me.
I think its only normal to feel pangs of jealousy, its not bad thoughts against the lucky opper its just bad thoughts against ourselves and wish it was me syndrome.
Im sat here with a loan agreement debating whether to sign it im that desperate....but its a secured loan and being a single parent im sh*t scared incase the band id have would fail and id be fat, miserable and in a whole load of debt and then in the same position as vamps where doc wont give me a bypass.
God its a headmesser!!

I have thought of trying to get a loan. But then I am self employed, so could only get a nasty loan.

I can understand the temptation. But if you may default....

I also think jealousy pangs are natural. But the comfort and support we all give each other is more than the jealousy.

(((Group hug!!!! Lol)))

 

[anna2131]

Hi vamp and ladies i really do hope you get your funding soon and ops ,i will say a little prayer for you !!! xx

 

[Fuffs]

Hi vamp and ladies i really do hope you get your funding soon and ops ,i will say a little prayer for you !!! xx

Thanks Anna xxx

 

[penelope1008]

No matter who we are one way or another we all have our battles for funding, our pangs of jealousy & envy or guilt for what we see as an easy path to our funding.
For me I had a comparatively easy path, a few weeks after my consultant suggested wls & wrote to my GP I was going through the motions of trying to lose weight for 6 mths so they had proof of supporting me in my efforts for the previous 2 yrs ( which of course they hadn't been). Finally the letter went off & I waited. I then got a letter confirming the application had been received when it would be reviewed & that I should get a letter perhaps a month later with their decision. Well a month later the day came & I went round hoping & with fingers etc crossed. Less than a week later I got a letter & felt sure that quickly it must be a no, but as I sat there my jaw dropping (according to my friend who was visiting at the time), as I read it twice if not 3 times before I could start to take it in & believe it. 2 mths later I saw the consultant, 18wks later I had my op. 18wks on I am now 6st lighter than at my heaviest & 2.5st lighter than on op day.
While I waited I had the same feelings when will it be me, while feeling happy for those who had had their ops I used the time to research & learn from their experiences.
Soon it will be your turn either to get your funding & or your ops good luck to you all it's a tough road but worth the travelling.

 

[Fuffs]

Thanks Penelope for sharing your story I guess for me right now patience is key