tomorrow i have my endoscopy appointment. everything happening tomorrow, couldnt re-arrange endoscopy so re-arranged appointment with my dads hospital so now i have delayed his home coming by week :sigh: my dog gets her op to remove cancer cyst at 8am tomoz.straight from there to hospital for me.and to finish it off i came on so im like a bull in a china shop.think its all the stress, but when im on i put weight on so now im fretting it will make diffo for weigh in tomoz, been getting weighed daily at chemist so know im on target aswell as going to gym every day for a hour, so have tried my hardest to keep target, bearing in mind i lost 10 lb more than i was meant to in first place.omg wat a week im having. my hubby says all this stress will be our divorce poor sole taking all my stress.and now im rambling with anxiety. doubt i will sleep tonight now.I know is it worth all this heartache but at this present time i wonder why im doing this to myself........the journey is a long hard one but i know once i have got the op i will have a new life which i have longed for ,for many years. sorry for been twisty but easier to rant on here where people know what it is actually like, family only say negative thoughts.