Roch
Shrinking away nicely :)
Hi all well i have been lurking now for about 4/5 weeksand only posting very rarely as things have not been 2 good for me and i am sooo angry and disgusted with myself, and did not want to admit on line how bad i am doing.
Yes i maybe be 9 stone down altogether but only just over 4 stone and its 5 months since my op on Tuesday, and i expected to do so much better, and have wasted 5 weeks where i could of lost another stone.
My losses have not been massive since my op but shrunk big time.
I have my first app with my dietician at the Whit in 19 days time and want to def lose at least 1.7 stone by then as i dont want to disappoint them(hence starting the pouch test today)
The past month i have fallen of track big time and although not gaining any weight i have never been so disgusted with myself as i have been given this fab gift of my bypass and the past 5 weeks since realising i dont ever dump i have just eaten crap, not gained any weight at all but have found it so hard to get back on track.
I came off all my opiate pain relief medication about 6 weeks ago and although i am still in a lot of pain i just take "Tramadol" and this only takes about 40% off my pain away as i have severe osteoarthritis in most of my joints and severe sciatica,but i refuse to go back on the meds as they caused major water retention and chronic constipation, i also had a fall in Primark 5 weeks ago which has caused me a lot of pain and means if i walk more than 10 mins my ankle swells up big time and causes me so much pain, so this has stopped me going out and about much and even walking my dogs.
Coming off my opiate meds has caused me to have bad insomnia which my doc put me on anti d tabs to make me sleep and they did not work so am now cutting down the anti d tabs and taking sleeping tabs, but reducing the anti d tabs is now interfering with my sleep. I have also found what my doc thinks is a big hernia it is the size and shape of a rugby ball but is just imprinted in my tummy but not pushing out as my tummy is so massive, i feel like i am falling apart at the seams and what did i do just turn to food not loads bit def not the right foods hence only losing a few pounds the past month.
I have started the 5 day pouch test today, although i know u should be 6 months post op and i am just 5 but i so need to jump start my losses and get back into eating protein again and not pure crap.
So far so good had five 98 cal protein shakes today made with just water and that is me for today, roll on tomorrow as still hungry :cry:
I feel like such a failure and need a serious kick up the arse for wasting the past 5 weeks. I have not told anyone about this even my friends who i know care about me and are there to support me 100% but i felt to ashamed to admit to anyone face to face or on the phone that i am failing miserably, untill now. I am hoping the reality of reading my post today will help me realise big time that i cant carry on like this and i need to make a massive effort and not take my bypass for granted.
Sorry for such a long winded drawn out post, i know i should not of gone awol and posted b4 now but this is a very bad habit of mine (going awol when times are bad) and a even harder habit to break :cry:thanks for taking the time to read this, take care luv Roch xx
Yes i maybe be 9 stone down altogether but only just over 4 stone and its 5 months since my op on Tuesday, and i expected to do so much better, and have wasted 5 weeks where i could of lost another stone.
My losses have not been massive since my op but shrunk big time.
I have my first app with my dietician at the Whit in 19 days time and want to def lose at least 1.7 stone by then as i dont want to disappoint them(hence starting the pouch test today)
The past month i have fallen of track big time and although not gaining any weight i have never been so disgusted with myself as i have been given this fab gift of my bypass and the past 5 weeks since realising i dont ever dump i have just eaten crap, not gained any weight at all but have found it so hard to get back on track.
I came off all my opiate pain relief medication about 6 weeks ago and although i am still in a lot of pain i just take "Tramadol" and this only takes about 40% off my pain away as i have severe osteoarthritis in most of my joints and severe sciatica,but i refuse to go back on the meds as they caused major water retention and chronic constipation, i also had a fall in Primark 5 weeks ago which has caused me a lot of pain and means if i walk more than 10 mins my ankle swells up big time and causes me so much pain, so this has stopped me going out and about much and even walking my dogs.
Coming off my opiate meds has caused me to have bad insomnia which my doc put me on anti d tabs to make me sleep and they did not work so am now cutting down the anti d tabs and taking sleeping tabs, but reducing the anti d tabs is now interfering with my sleep. I have also found what my doc thinks is a big hernia it is the size and shape of a rugby ball but is just imprinted in my tummy but not pushing out as my tummy is so massive, i feel like i am falling apart at the seams and what did i do just turn to food not loads bit def not the right foods hence only losing a few pounds the past month.
I have started the 5 day pouch test today, although i know u should be 6 months post op and i am just 5 but i so need to jump start my losses and get back into eating protein again and not pure crap.
So far so good had five 98 cal protein shakes today made with just water and that is me for today, roll on tomorrow as still hungry :cry:
I feel like such a failure and need a serious kick up the arse for wasting the past 5 weeks. I have not told anyone about this even my friends who i know care about me and are there to support me 100% but i felt to ashamed to admit to anyone face to face or on the phone that i am failing miserably, untill now. I am hoping the reality of reading my post today will help me realise big time that i cant carry on like this and i need to make a massive effort and not take my bypass for granted.
Sorry for such a long winded drawn out post, i know i should not of gone awol and posted b4 now but this is a very bad habit of mine (going awol when times are bad) and a even harder habit to break :cry:thanks for taking the time to read this, take care luv Roch xx