Well I return with my tail between my legs here. I've lost half a stone so far since the op. I haven't had my first fill yet, they wouldn't do it until I got a period (I'm very irregular due to PCOS) so I've fibbed and am having it next week. I've not seen ANYONE since I left the hospital after the operation, and to be honest, I feel a bit abandoned. The dietician wasn't there when I checked out, and she's rung me twice letting it ring once then leaving a voicemail with no number. Nothing from the consultant. I feel like because I've paid, they aren't interested anymore
I've had a lot going on in the last two months, moving house, and had a massive stress on regarding debts. So my head hasn't been where it should be. I'm aware of what I'm doing wrong, it's just been hard to motivate myself. I've not been sick more than once, and I have cut out some stuff I'm not good with - but I find myself turning to easy things like chocolate - such an emotional eater. I actually have an in-person meeting with the dietician for the first time since Feb in 2 weeks, and aside from presumably admonishing me for not losing much I'm hoping it will be helpful for the mental side somehow.
I only get 2 fills included in my package (I went for a hospital I 'trusted' rather than one slightly cheaper with more in the package) and it's £250 a time for a fill after that, and it'll take me 4 months to save that - so understandably I want the first fill to be in and decent and help me make a difference. I feel a bit defeated by it all if I'm honest, because I've just let all the stress lead me back down paths I didn't want to be on.
I decided the week after my fill, I'm going to go along to a local aqua fit class so I can try doing that, getting some exercise that I might find pleasant would help. It's hard in this weather though, it's so depressing!
Snap out of it woman, you're half a stone down, you can lose a few more lbs by your dietician appointment if you knuckle down, and this is about the long haul rather than short term extreme loss.