Hiya All I'm technically not a newbie because as you can see on the left I originally joined (minimins) last Jan, when I started Lighter Life for the second time but I never got around to posting anything and eventually forgot I had joined...LL didn't go well to say the least - I ended up 2 kilos heavier than I was at the start of it. So while trawling for advice on how to stop my panic eating, when I should be on my pre-op diet (op on Wednesday 16 June), I found this forum again. *Kismet*? I've struggled with my weight for over 10 years and have tried every diet at least twice. After much and various therapies - CBT (Cognitive Behaviour Therapy) seemed to work. For months I've been fine - 3 meals a day no bingeing and no depressive episodes, then I get my date and the pre-op diet options, a choice of slim-fast, a milk diet (can't abide milk unless it's mixed with chocolate) or a 1000 calorie food diet. I chose the Slim-fast diet - BIG mistake as they tasted awful - for me they have a nasty chemical aftertaste - so for two days I basically had nothing but water and diet drinks. I changed to the 1000cal food diet, and while it was a struggle I did it for 3 days Then on Monday after a stressful weekend (huge drama and arguments about my surgery), I binged on chinese food and since then I've eaten more than I was eating before I even started the pre-op diet. So what I want advice on is whether I should cancel my op as I'm probably not ready for it and this is my usual self-sabotaging behaviour which I should sort out first. Or should I diet like mad for the next 5/6 days and hope I not only shrink my liver but that I can get my head back to where it needs to be? I have lost 3 kilos (6.6lbs) since the beginning of my pre-op diet, but as I've been eating high fat high sugar foods, I'm sure my liver is as large as ever:sigh: Help!!!!