Hi all, hope everyones ok.
Wedding plans coming along nicely, only 40 weeks, 5 days and counting! Everything is sorted, just got to get there and I cant wait. But first things first, realling looking forward to Christmas
Busy few weeks ahead with work, home life, hospitals and other things slotted in between.
Healthwise, things are blah! Op date cancelled, awaiting new date, doubt it will be this side of Christmas, but wish it would come sooner rather than later and get it out the way. Also filled with fear as to what will happen, will it be the same as before? will I be ok? Will it fix the problems? Will it make things better? Will it make things worse? Just the uncertainty of everything is driving me crazy.
Still at the hospital every other week. Very fed up of it, they must be fed up with me. Now being referred to other teams and hospitals to get things fixed.
It will be four years in February 2016 since this journey began, and still day to day living is a nightmare and a tiresome battle. I just want everything to draw to a close. Whilst Im living a part-happy-ever-after, I want the end game now. I want the full happy-ever-after that doesnt involve hospitals, doctors, nurses, tests, operations and countless medicines.
Maybe Ive been good enough this year to get my Christmas wish
If not, Ill try do better next year !
Love to you all x x