EmmaLouise81
New Member
Very sad to be writing this but I have had to give up on weight loss surgery.
I got off a plane last yr on my way to Chichester to meet Mr Somers for a consultation, I put it down to tiredness (I have M.E) and a very small plane.
I thought if I my consultations in Ireland then only travel to the UK once for the op all would be good..if only!!
I have terrible anxiety problems which I believe stem from my life long weight battle but they are out of hand now.
I went to The Hospital Group first, found they unfriendly, pushy about money and they turned around last minute to change the surgeon to one I knew I would never go too. They mucked me around so much I decided I was not comfortable with them so I went to the WLS group.
Wendy the nurse was amazing, she put me to ease straight away, no talk of money just such a lovely lady. That was Aug 30th, surgery could not happen straight away as my mum and aunt would be going with me and they had weddings, holidays etc booked for September.
My op date was 13th Oct, 2 weeks before I had a bad cold then woke up with cramps in my stomach like never before. I put it down to anxiety and got into such a state, crying all weekend etc. Things got so bad my mum called for a DR to come...not my usual one but a month ago he saw me and asked how with my ill-healthy and anxiety problems would I be able to cope with such a big operation. It put doubt in my head but I wanted it so much I did not think about it.
He was very unsupportive at my home, in and out in 5 mins and just ignored me and told my mum to take the option of not going away...'she is going, no choice about it'
He had forgotten seeing me last month...so I am sitting begging him to give me something to calm me down. He doubled my regular medication and give me diazepam..told me not to take it until a few days before trip but then said I could have one before bed that night.
Well...not sure what set me off but the next day I was ready to be carted off to the padded cells..it was maybe mixing them or a higer dose but my skin was crawling, I was crying and I was suicidal. I actually told my mum I wanted to kill myself...I barely remember it but she said my eyes where so spaced out. I have seen people having drug related problems on tv but never thought it could happen to me...I dont even drink alcohol!!
My family started rubbing and slapping my body, I had to be forced to drink water and was put in a cold shower...after a few hours I started coming round but it was terrible for us all.
We realised that I am in no fit state to have the op, mentally or physically. I have no fear of the op, had one a few years ago the difference was it was a 45 min drive from home and my family saw me each day.
At present there are no weight loss surgeries happening in N.Ireland...nor Dublin from what I understand. I have such a fear of airports, planes etc that going to the mainland for surgery is out...until the day they can provide here my dream of being slim, healthy and possible healthy are over. I hoped I would gain confidence to date, maybe marry and hopefully have children one day...approaching 30 next year and I fear none of that is now in my future.
I have found these forum amazing over the years, you have all given me such hope and inspiration...I only wish I could have been writing this message to say I was on the losers bench.
I got off a plane last yr on my way to Chichester to meet Mr Somers for a consultation, I put it down to tiredness (I have M.E) and a very small plane.
I thought if I my consultations in Ireland then only travel to the UK once for the op all would be good..if only!!
I have terrible anxiety problems which I believe stem from my life long weight battle but they are out of hand now.
I went to The Hospital Group first, found they unfriendly, pushy about money and they turned around last minute to change the surgeon to one I knew I would never go too. They mucked me around so much I decided I was not comfortable with them so I went to the WLS group.
Wendy the nurse was amazing, she put me to ease straight away, no talk of money just such a lovely lady. That was Aug 30th, surgery could not happen straight away as my mum and aunt would be going with me and they had weddings, holidays etc booked for September.
My op date was 13th Oct, 2 weeks before I had a bad cold then woke up with cramps in my stomach like never before. I put it down to anxiety and got into such a state, crying all weekend etc. Things got so bad my mum called for a DR to come...not my usual one but a month ago he saw me and asked how with my ill-healthy and anxiety problems would I be able to cope with such a big operation. It put doubt in my head but I wanted it so much I did not think about it.
He was very unsupportive at my home, in and out in 5 mins and just ignored me and told my mum to take the option of not going away...'she is going, no choice about it'
He had forgotten seeing me last month...so I am sitting begging him to give me something to calm me down. He doubled my regular medication and give me diazepam..told me not to take it until a few days before trip but then said I could have one before bed that night.
Well...not sure what set me off but the next day I was ready to be carted off to the padded cells..it was maybe mixing them or a higer dose but my skin was crawling, I was crying and I was suicidal. I actually told my mum I wanted to kill myself...I barely remember it but she said my eyes where so spaced out. I have seen people having drug related problems on tv but never thought it could happen to me...I dont even drink alcohol!!
My family started rubbing and slapping my body, I had to be forced to drink water and was put in a cold shower...after a few hours I started coming round but it was terrible for us all.
We realised that I am in no fit state to have the op, mentally or physically. I have no fear of the op, had one a few years ago the difference was it was a 45 min drive from home and my family saw me each day.
At present there are no weight loss surgeries happening in N.Ireland...nor Dublin from what I understand. I have such a fear of airports, planes etc that going to the mainland for surgery is out...until the day they can provide here my dream of being slim, healthy and possible healthy are over. I hoped I would gain confidence to date, maybe marry and hopefully have children one day...approaching 30 next year and I fear none of that is now in my future.
I have found these forum amazing over the years, you have all given me such hope and inspiration...I only wish I could have been writing this message to say I was on the losers bench.
