on a bit of a downer :-((((((((((((

[ryanrara]

I am okay, well not really, actually pretty down. I cant seem to be able to eat, except pro nutro ( my cereal that I buy from South Africa) and it's really getting me down. I had my 8 week follow up on Friday and the docs are happy. Bloods and results are great. I have even lost a shoe size and 2cm on my height. Wierd hey?
I stopped my anti depressants 6 weeks back and the doc reckons that might be playing a role in the fact that I cant eat anything but cereal. he reckons it might be anxiety related. so he has put me back on my anti depressants and says if be first week in January I still cant handle anything, that they will put a camera down and see whats what. iIt maybe i need what the call a stretch.
I have had pro nutro for a week. So today, an hour or so a go at work, I tried cauliflower cheese, 2 small tea spoons and came up two mins later. And since, like always after I puke, I just wanna pike some more and its a few hours until I can even hold down water again. Really bummed and upset.
Its just so many other people at the same stage at me can eat so much more. really is getting me down. I am sick of bloody pro nutro. At least its full of nutrients. Hopefully will get better.
I know the worst thing I should do is compare myself to others, its just so difficult not too.
And although my weight loss is fantastic, even if I say so myself, this not being able to eat is really horrid. I am almost nine and a half weeks postop after my bypass. All my meds, barr now the anti depressants, are gone. No high blood pressure, no high cholestrol. Clothes are fitting, I can already fit in to clotehs bought of the rack, apposed to specialist big man clothes. So I really should be jumping up for JOY! And I ussually am. Ask anyone around me I am MR Positive! I have a great family and great support! But honestly right now I just wanna cry! I just want to be able to eat. Not junk, not loads, tiny bites will do. Just anything but porridge.
And cant handle runny mash any more, yoghurt, custards, all the stuff from my puree stage. All I can handle is my porridge, babybel cheeses and chhesy wotsits And the thing is I dont want to handle cheesy wotsits. Thats why I had my op so I could get off junk like that. But without the wotsits I barely hot 300 calories a day at the moment, so at leats one packet pushes me up 95 calories.
I know I can do nothing but ride the storm, hope the doc is right and my anti depressants kick in. Failing that it's an endoscopy down my throat next month and a possible stretch.
I am just very down, very down about it all. Really down and its a big struggle that I must and have to overcome! :-(
Anyway rant over I guess and I will just have to buck myself up!
Going to pull a sickie at work tomorrow and try carol ball's recipe book for post op ideas and go to the gym and have a good swim. Water seems to give me strength.
Onwards and upwards,

 

[Big an Bouncy]

Do get some good homemade soups down your neck before you become ill!Milky coffee,sloppy mince and mash.Anything to get some protien in till the doc can get a look inside or you will be ill.Best of luck Maz

 

[Peterborough Guy]

Now interestingly, I was speaking to a guy at L&D a while ago, and he was 6 months out and like you, all he could keep down was wotsits nothing else, so you will not be alone, however it isnt right and like Maz has said, try different food to see if you can stomach anything.

Just out of interest, do u start to panic when you know u have to eat Ryan?

 

[ryanrara]

Now interestingly, I was speaking to a guy at L&D a while ago, and he was 6 months out and like you, all he could keep down was wotsits nothing else, so you will not be alone, however it isnt right and like Maz has said, try different food to see if you can stomach anything.

Just out of interest, do u start to panic when you know u have to eat Ryan?

nope, not at all. i get nervous and I think about it for hours before hand but nope, no panic attacks. Luckily my cerail is full of nutrients but deffo will try some soups form tomoz

 

[Peterborough Guy]

Have you tried a few nuts, I went through a stage where soft food caused me problems but crunchy hard food went down no problem.

Keep us updated, and try to get some protein and fluids down or you will end up in a hospital bed again mate on a drip and we dont want that.

 

[Caren]

no advice from me Ryan, just want to wish you all the very best xxx

 

[Muffintop83]

No advice but im looking forward to seeing the results of the pole and what people say...Hope you get some answers soon Ryan.

 

[joffy01582]

i've found foodwise that no two days are the same here with me ...............one day i can eat a piece of wholemeal toast the following day i can't same with chicken ..................mind you tinned stewing steak in gravy with smash seems to fill the hole most days

 

[amy_m]

nope, not at all. i get nervous and I think about it for hours before hand but nope, no panic attacks. Luckily my cerail is full of nutrients but deffo will try some soups form tomoz

Ryan if your nervous then this will cause you problems. Nervous is a form of anxiety so even though you say u aren't having a panic attack you could well be having one. Not all panic attacks have racing hearts or palpitations.

You could be psyching yourself out so it's making it harder for you. Have you told your doctor what it's like before u have a meal ?? Please do maybe it would be good if you could see a counsellor about food anxiety it may help.

Please keep us updated and stay safe x

 

[honeykiss]

NOt much advice to offer Ryan but just wanted to send hugs. Hopefully if it carries on at least you will have an answer as to whether it is physical or psychological as to why you cannot seem to tolerate anything apart from your cereal.

Are drinks going down ok? I know you are fed up with sloppies but are those "slider" foods staying down is it just lumpy textured foods you are not tolerating?

Whatever happens we are all here to listen if you want to sound off.

Wendy x

 

[Solga]

Hi Ryan,won't be able to give you any advise but I hope that everything will change to the best soon and please keep your chin up mate xxxxxxxxxx

 

[TwinkleTwinkle]

No pearls of wisdom from me either, Ryan but sending you lots of hugs Can you get anything like Complan to stay down as this is supposed to be good if you can't eat + you could add extra Marvel for additional protein ... Good luck, sweetheart xxx

 

[stefanie]

Ryan, I think I have replied before, but I have had two stretches, because like you, I was a cheesey watsit girl!!! Pm me if you need any advice or reassurance . I can now eat a toddler size meal.

 

[Ric]

Hey Ryan I'm seven weeks, and my diet is still restricted, any solids are difficult tbh no solid meats, meats have to be blended still.

I can eat crackers with cream cheese with a spice salsa that's my favourite lunch, and stew blended to a purée is my fav evening meal with veg blended and mash. Only a small bowl too.

Its still early days we will get there

 

[lyndajoan]

just to let you know i am thinking of you ryan,
as p.b.guy says it could be a nervious thing
around eating food, because of being sick when you do eat,
i do hope your anti depresants start to work for you soon.

you are so right not to comper your self with anyone else
but that does not mean you carnt take advice and tips
which i am sure you do,
you take care and try to get enough as you can in your body to stay well. xxxxx

 

[Linda TE]

I'm exactly the same 8 weeks out and soup and yog are the only things staying in. The specialist nurse from my hospital finally called back today and says as long as fluids are going in that's fine, may just be taking me longer to heal but if still same problem may need a stretch in a few weeks. She was saying it's very common and to just keep trying but only have one teaspoon of food each time and try to build up once that stays in x

 

[Tray3004]

Good luck Hun hope u feel better soon x

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[FuturePerfect]

Ryan, I'm still on fluids, but I'm finding there are some fabulous tasting fresh soups out there - don't go for the budget ranges, treat yourself to the finest, and just try 1 tsp, see if it stays down. You can freeze the rest if the use by date gets a bit close.

I'm sure it will get better; other people have gone through the same stage and come out the other side with more variety in their diet, and your time will come too.

Keep your chin up sweetheart.

 

[ryanrara]

still really down folks, but i will beta this thing. finishing work shortly and going home to try some quoarn mince. apparently goes down quite easy and full of protein. will keep you posted. fingers crossed. been 9 days on porridge only so have to try. tried the tiniest bit of chicken yesterday cut up small in gravy, but sadly came straight back up. here is hoping. thanks all for words of encouragement.
PB guy - what nuts would you recommend? Would peanuts be okay?

 

[amy_m]

Try this website it will help you get the best out of what little your eating

Side by Side Nutrition Facts Comparison

It's allows u to compare different foods to make sure your picking the highest value and also has some advice on super food which are really good for us x