Your GP or another GP in the Practice should be a go-between between you and your consultant. That is what GPs are supposed to do. Yours is one of the most tragic posts that I have read on this forum. As I said before, your quality of life is zilch, and you really need someone, perhaps a family member or someone who is eloquent and determined, to help you through this. If your GP simply shrugs his shoulders - hmm I better not put into words what is in my head. Everyone here really feels for you and there is a way round it, and I wonder whether anyone on here has contacts or can put you on the right track. I would love to advise but am not able to. When possible, please keep posting on here, and we will all support you as best we can along the way. Please don't feel that you are being troublesome, as everyone here really wants to see you sorted.