Alia
New Member
Good morning all,
I've just woke up and every one else is still sleeping and I've been sitting here thinking and one thing that I've noticed that as my weight goes down I'm starting to take more pride in myself.
If I look back say 3 years, I pampered myself big style. I'd never leave the house with out putting make up on, I'd have my hair done regularly and my nails. I'd dress up nicely, stick on my favourite perfume and head for the door. Even just to take the kids to school.
As my weight increased rapidly I stopped going out as much, infact to the point where just before my wls I was living pretty much like a hermitt. I never wore make up, started lounging around in a big baggy t-shirt and sweatpants (one of the few things that still fitted me prior to surgery), and stopped doing my make up.
I never stopped buying clothes though, even though I knew they were too small. I have, and this is no exageration, a huge walk in wardrobe, a triple wardrobe and a double wardrobe, plus drawers full of clothes. Not to mention the ones in vacuum bags in the attic, and most of them, I'd say 90% still have the tags on them. Over 30 pairs of jeans hanging up never worn. I dont know why I did that but it made me feel good to see all the clothes there even if I could n't wear them.
I'm going to leave it another stone and a half then start trying things on cause I don't want the disappointment of them still being too small.
Don't even get me started on shoes cause I could n't tell you how many pairs I have stacked up... most again never worn, beautiful heeled shoes that would have crippled me in the past and probably still will now lol but again seeing them all there feels great. I'm panicking a bit cause some one told me even your feet can shrink when you lose weight and I've visions of being shoeless lol.
Anyway back to my point, since I've been losing the weight I can see myself starting to take a bit more pride, even put on some make up the other day just for in the house but it felt great and all the kids kept saying mum you look great. I've started to moisturise again, do my nails and get my feet into good condtion again.
Even though I've only lost just over 3 stone and I know I have a very long way to go yet, I can see it only getting better.
My house suffered a little bit aswell. Up until say 4 months before my surgery, no matter how big I was, I'd clean my house from top to bottom every dayeven if it killed me but as the weight went on and my pain increased I had to stop doing so much and although it was never dirty it was n't as tidy as I like but I'm starting to get back on top of it now as I'm recovering and can't wait till I'm back to my normal busy self.
Prattling on I know but it feels good to write it all down.
Alia xxx
I've just woke up and every one else is still sleeping and I've been sitting here thinking and one thing that I've noticed that as my weight goes down I'm starting to take more pride in myself.
If I look back say 3 years, I pampered myself big style. I'd never leave the house with out putting make up on, I'd have my hair done regularly and my nails. I'd dress up nicely, stick on my favourite perfume and head for the door. Even just to take the kids to school.
As my weight increased rapidly I stopped going out as much, infact to the point where just before my wls I was living pretty much like a hermitt. I never wore make up, started lounging around in a big baggy t-shirt and sweatpants (one of the few things that still fitted me prior to surgery), and stopped doing my make up.
I never stopped buying clothes though, even though I knew they were too small. I have, and this is no exageration, a huge walk in wardrobe, a triple wardrobe and a double wardrobe, plus drawers full of clothes. Not to mention the ones in vacuum bags in the attic, and most of them, I'd say 90% still have the tags on them. Over 30 pairs of jeans hanging up never worn. I dont know why I did that but it made me feel good to see all the clothes there even if I could n't wear them.
I'm going to leave it another stone and a half then start trying things on cause I don't want the disappointment of them still being too small.
Don't even get me started on shoes cause I could n't tell you how many pairs I have stacked up... most again never worn, beautiful heeled shoes that would have crippled me in the past and probably still will now lol but again seeing them all there feels great. I'm panicking a bit cause some one told me even your feet can shrink when you lose weight and I've visions of being shoeless lol.
Anyway back to my point, since I've been losing the weight I can see myself starting to take a bit more pride, even put on some make up the other day just for in the house but it felt great and all the kids kept saying mum you look great. I've started to moisturise again, do my nails and get my feet into good condtion again.
Even though I've only lost just over 3 stone and I know I have a very long way to go yet, I can see it only getting better.
My house suffered a little bit aswell. Up until say 4 months before my surgery, no matter how big I was, I'd clean my house from top to bottom every dayeven if it killed me but as the weight went on and my pain increased I had to stop doing so much and although it was never dirty it was n't as tidy as I like but I'm starting to get back on top of it now as I'm recovering and can't wait till I'm back to my normal busy self.
Prattling on I know but it feels good to write it all down.
Alia xxx
