perkyprincess
New Member
having a crazy time at the mo. i havent posted in a while. lots going on at the mo and my brain is all pickled. im due my next appointment in august and only needed to lose 10lbs which i have done and some more. i should be getting excited and all i feel like doing all the time is crying. i have recently seperated from my husband we have been together 12 years and im struggling. i have days where i eat and eat and then days where i cant be bothered i cant sleep and im constantly cranky. its scray the thought that im gonna have to put my self out there again after all that time im so paraniod about my size and i know i wont be big forever but then i think who is gonna be interested in some one with loads of flabby skin. these are all probably trivial issues and i should be thinking of more important things i suppose im just scared of being on my own. im scared that once i have the op im not gonna be able to cope on my own, i have a five year old son who is a great kid, no bother at all but how will i manage with him after my op. i dont have the worlds most supportive family my sister called me and i quote " a waste on NHS and tax payers money" nice eh. why cant i lose weight like any other NORMAL person she said so i guess im not a normal person cos im fat. sorry about the ranting not got many people to talk to.