Sar2567
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I suppose a lot of my dark wants were the same as everyone else. I said it was all about health effects and that I was happy as I was. That is kind of true but of course I wanted to look good and for people around me to think that too. I also wanted the people around me to not feel like they had to say "have you lost weight" when it was obvious you hadn't but people said it to make you feel better.
I wanted to feel like an equal in my relationship. What I found out was that actually, my partner - now ex partner. Was actually partly with me as it made her feel better and she liked being the 'slim' one despite being only a little bit smaller than me, but 5 inches shorter than me at her biggest. I also realised that she was using my weight as a way of controlling me and making me think that I couldn't go out and do something as she made me think I couldn't. I am now with an incredible woman who I have known for 16 years. She is 10 years older than me and has also lost about 8 stone, but through diet and exercise. She admitted that she didnt think of me sexually whilst I was big, but the growth in confidence and surety made me stand out.
I was always really shy in bed and lacked confidence, but had a high sex drive. Now I can keep up with my new partner and am loving experimenting!!! Just wish I had my boobs still, although apparently they used to scare my new partner apparently?
I wanted to wear a pair of knee high boots, I do and love them, I don't even have that ugly mark around my calf or the bulge over the top and I feel very sexy!
I wanted to look good when I went out. To buy 'normal' clothes. I bought my first size 10 jeans at the weekend. Head still coping with that.
I now can't wait to go on holiday and wear a swimsuit, although I would so love to have sorted the extra tummy and thigh skin, it is getting better slowly - I think. Next year I would like to wear a bikini after having a tummy tuck and maybe the year after I will have my boobs back?
I wanted to feel like an equal in my relationship. What I found out was that actually, my partner - now ex partner. Was actually partly with me as it made her feel better and she liked being the 'slim' one despite being only a little bit smaller than me, but 5 inches shorter than me at her biggest. I also realised that she was using my weight as a way of controlling me and making me think that I couldn't go out and do something as she made me think I couldn't. I am now with an incredible woman who I have known for 16 years. She is 10 years older than me and has also lost about 8 stone, but through diet and exercise. She admitted that she didnt think of me sexually whilst I was big, but the growth in confidence and surety made me stand out.
I was always really shy in bed and lacked confidence, but had a high sex drive. Now I can keep up with my new partner and am loving experimenting!!! Just wish I had my boobs still, although apparently they used to scare my new partner apparently?
I wanted to wear a pair of knee high boots, I do and love them, I don't even have that ugly mark around my calf or the bulge over the top and I feel very sexy!
I wanted to look good when I went out. To buy 'normal' clothes. I bought my first size 10 jeans at the weekend. Head still coping with that.
I now can't wait to go on holiday and wear a swimsuit, although I would so love to have sorted the extra tummy and thigh skin, it is getting better slowly - I think. Next year I would like to wear a bikini after having a tummy tuck and maybe the year after I will have my boobs back?
