Thanks everyone for your kind words

It was my first day back at work today - 13 days post op - I must admit had a bit of a breakdown which I have never done in my life!! I scared myself!! It took me ages to get myself sorted with tablets, 30 mins break, food, 30 mins break, getting ready and then travel no coffee until getting into office then asked if I was ok - tears came flooding!!! Full on emotional breakdown!!! I have wanted this for so long now got it and scared to death for the rest of my life after today's fiasco! How on earth am I going to manage each day getting food and coffee in and tablets with all the frickin timelines, the lansoprozole knock me off my feet so I have to lay down after talking them (anybody else experienced this???) and now totally wondering what the hell have I done electively to myself

Has anybody else felt like this??? thanks x