woweee I get depressed when I think about this cause it reminds me of just how much weight I have to lose. To be healthy and with a healthy bmi (bearing in mind that I've never been slim, started to gain weight as a small child so dont know really what weight I would look ok at) I would estimate that I have to lose around 18 stone.. crap!! CAN'T STAND THINKING OF IT LIKE THAT.... but on a positive note nearly 3 of that has already gone and gone for good so that helps.
If I could lose ten stone in a year from the date of my bypass I'd be exctatic and although that seems alot, as I have so much to lose its meant to come off quicker, so they tell me.
You know all my life no matter who I have been with who have been my friends at the time, comparing any obese people I have been associated I have ALWAYS been the biggest or the fattest. Its a trend that has seemed to follow me everywhere I go. At school my best friend was obese, just not as obese as I was, after my first marriage one of my closest friends was also obese, again not as big as me and so on and so on it goes till the present where yet again my best friend is obese but not as obese as me. (not that it makes me feel any thing bad towards her, I love her to bits) I think if I can change that trend and be the smaller of the obese people in my circle of friends it would be a huge achievement. I probably sound like I've dropped a few marbles instead of the pounds I've lost but different things are important to different people and this is one thing I want to change in my life.
I would love to know if there is any one here who has as much weight to lose I have and how they manage to stay positive when they look at the big picture.
, but realistically im aiming for 3 and a half and the rest the following year and more if i can
