yamyam
New Member
Hiya,
Sorry in advance. I've just tried to write a brief bit about myself but it ended up longwinded. I'll just type and hope someone keeps up with me!
Basically, I hate my belly. It's covered in stretchmarks ALL OVER - some of the being the best part of an inch wide. This is a result of a massive weight gain combined with a twin pregnancy.
When I wake up in the morning the very first thing I do is feel my stomach. You will probably think i'm mad here but I can only say it's like feeling a dead person. I don't know whether there's nerve damage but I can barely feel my hand when I touch it. And its cold. It just doesn't feel like me - its like somebody else..... a dead person.
Every month or 2 I get an infection in my belly button because my waistband on my jeans/trousers rubs it and it goes red raw and stinks to high heaven (sorry if TMI). I had a coule of operations because of infertility and they went in through the side wall of my belly button, but because of my pregnancy its inches lower than it should be.
You'll see from my photo below, my arms and legs are borderline skinny ffs, i'm just so out of proportion.
I just feel that i'm 35 years old and am not able to enjoy feeling nice in my clothes. Size 14 jeans fit nicely round my legs but cut into my stomach so I have to wear 16's which are so baggy everywhere else I just feel horrible all the time. And as ever, it's my waking thought every morning, and my last thought at night and it's wearing me down so much. In the 2nd photo below i'm on holiday - it's bloody hot and i'm wearing magic knickers and they're so horrible and sweaty.
Anyway (sorry), I went to my GP as soon as my BMI hit 25 and I didn't have to convince her. I mentioned my twin pregnancy then she looked at my belly and just said "oh." in a "I see what you mean" way, and immediately started writing my referral.
I received a phonecall today and i'm going to the hospital on Tuesday 12th June (next tuesday). Now i'm starting to get scared. Can anyone help?
What do they do?
What do they ask?
How am I supposed to be?
If they're expecting me to cry about it, I just can't. I'm not a cryer, but if I tell them about how I really feel (like touching a dead body) will they think i'm mentally unstable?
I'm severely crapping myself. I've got to have this done - I can't spend the rest of my life feeling so revolting.
K x
Sorry in advance. I've just tried to write a brief bit about myself but it ended up longwinded. I'll just type and hope someone keeps up with me!
Basically, I hate my belly. It's covered in stretchmarks ALL OVER - some of the being the best part of an inch wide. This is a result of a massive weight gain combined with a twin pregnancy.
When I wake up in the morning the very first thing I do is feel my stomach. You will probably think i'm mad here but I can only say it's like feeling a dead person. I don't know whether there's nerve damage but I can barely feel my hand when I touch it. And its cold. It just doesn't feel like me - its like somebody else..... a dead person.
Every month or 2 I get an infection in my belly button because my waistband on my jeans/trousers rubs it and it goes red raw and stinks to high heaven (sorry if TMI). I had a coule of operations because of infertility and they went in through the side wall of my belly button, but because of my pregnancy its inches lower than it should be.
You'll see from my photo below, my arms and legs are borderline skinny ffs, i'm just so out of proportion.
I just feel that i'm 35 years old and am not able to enjoy feeling nice in my clothes. Size 14 jeans fit nicely round my legs but cut into my stomach so I have to wear 16's which are so baggy everywhere else I just feel horrible all the time. And as ever, it's my waking thought every morning, and my last thought at night and it's wearing me down so much. In the 2nd photo below i'm on holiday - it's bloody hot and i'm wearing magic knickers and they're so horrible and sweaty.
Anyway (sorry), I went to my GP as soon as my BMI hit 25 and I didn't have to convince her. I mentioned my twin pregnancy then she looked at my belly and just said "oh." in a "I see what you mean" way, and immediately started writing my referral.
I received a phonecall today and i'm going to the hospital on Tuesday 12th June (next tuesday). Now i'm starting to get scared. Can anyone help?
What do they do?
What do they ask?
How am I supposed to be?
If they're expecting me to cry about it, I just can't. I'm not a cryer, but if I tell them about how I really feel (like touching a dead body) will they think i'm mentally unstable?
I'm severely crapping myself. I've got to have this done - I can't spend the rest of my life feeling so revolting.
K x
