Ellzee
Member
Good morning all, some of you might have seen me in the 'introduce yourself' section but I'm going to start from the beginning anyway.
My name is Laura and I thought long and hard over what to call this diary, after all I'm probably going to be coming back to it pretty often fo quite a long time. I've done a VLCD before, you could say successfully while it lasted as I lost 4 stone. While I was doing that I had a diary called journey to find the new me. So in 2012 I set of on that journey, lost over 4 stone and certainly found a new me. it felt amazing, I was more confident, less shy, willing to meet new people, willing to accept invitations for nights out as opposed to thinking 'oh no, I'll hide in my house instead and go next time when I've lost weight'. So its kind of sad, that 2 years later I'm sat here heavier than when I even started. Sadly, that seems to be the story of a fair few ex VLCDers.
So I decided to make changes for life, changes that I cant just drop because I've had a crap day and I'd really rather eat a takeaway tan make a healthy meal. I'm pretty sure that it isn't a new me I want to find, but just the real me. The me that I was when I was growing up without a care in the world, and the me I know I will be if I don't have to worry about people looking, laughing, staring and talking. So here goes......
I started my journey with Spire healthcare last October with a free mini consultation with a surgeon called Mr. Toh. He was lovely, but I decided I should at least give it one last attempt to diet the 'normal' way. My mum is a weight watchers leader who has done amazingly so I signed up but failed relatively quickly always having this in the back of my mind.
Come March I had decided to go ahead but after 6 weeks of trying to organise a date with Mr Toh and being messed about i get told he wont be offering surgery any more. Very odd.
So now I've been dealing with streamline surgical, saved myself £1k and gained an extra year of free after care. They've been amazing and I feel very comfortable with Mr. Slater who will be performing my gastric band operation next Friday.
This morning is milk-0 days. It starts here. I am quite scared about the milk diet but I'm going to do it and I'm going to do it well because I have to. I am not jeopardising this operation that I have forgone a big holiday for this year!!
I'm scared about the operation too, not the procedure but the way of life. I want to make those changes but its all so unknown at the moment. You can read all you like but you can never understand what it feels like.
My husband is amazing, so supportive and even took over making dinner last night when I broke down in tears because I didn't have any flour to make the bubble and squeak I had been looking forward to as my last supper. His mum had a gastric bypass 2 years ago, looks fantastic and he knows I am not happy how I am even though he loves me either way.
I haven't told work what I'm doing, or anyone other than my husband and parents. I don't know if and when I will but I cant be doing with peoples opinions on 'you don't need to do that'.
So anyway, sorry this is a bit long, I'll bring it to a close. My journey starts here. I'm 28, nearly 29. I've wasted my 20s yoyo dieting and I am hoping by the time I turn 30 I am a good way there to being the REAL Laura I deserve to be
I look forward to sharing my journey with you all! x
My name is Laura and I thought long and hard over what to call this diary, after all I'm probably going to be coming back to it pretty often fo quite a long time. I've done a VLCD before, you could say successfully while it lasted as I lost 4 stone. While I was doing that I had a diary called journey to find the new me. So in 2012 I set of on that journey, lost over 4 stone and certainly found a new me. it felt amazing, I was more confident, less shy, willing to meet new people, willing to accept invitations for nights out as opposed to thinking 'oh no, I'll hide in my house instead and go next time when I've lost weight'. So its kind of sad, that 2 years later I'm sat here heavier than when I even started. Sadly, that seems to be the story of a fair few ex VLCDers.
So I decided to make changes for life, changes that I cant just drop because I've had a crap day and I'd really rather eat a takeaway tan make a healthy meal. I'm pretty sure that it isn't a new me I want to find, but just the real me. The me that I was when I was growing up without a care in the world, and the me I know I will be if I don't have to worry about people looking, laughing, staring and talking. So here goes......
I started my journey with Spire healthcare last October with a free mini consultation with a surgeon called Mr. Toh. He was lovely, but I decided I should at least give it one last attempt to diet the 'normal' way. My mum is a weight watchers leader who has done amazingly so I signed up but failed relatively quickly always having this in the back of my mind.
Come March I had decided to go ahead but after 6 weeks of trying to organise a date with Mr Toh and being messed about i get told he wont be offering surgery any more. Very odd.
So now I've been dealing with streamline surgical, saved myself £1k and gained an extra year of free after care. They've been amazing and I feel very comfortable with Mr. Slater who will be performing my gastric band operation next Friday.
This morning is milk-0 days. It starts here. I am quite scared about the milk diet but I'm going to do it and I'm going to do it well because I have to. I am not jeopardising this operation that I have forgone a big holiday for this year!!
I'm scared about the operation too, not the procedure but the way of life. I want to make those changes but its all so unknown at the moment. You can read all you like but you can never understand what it feels like.
My husband is amazing, so supportive and even took over making dinner last night when I broke down in tears because I didn't have any flour to make the bubble and squeak I had been looking forward to as my last supper. His mum had a gastric bypass 2 years ago, looks fantastic and he knows I am not happy how I am even though he loves me either way.
I haven't told work what I'm doing, or anyone other than my husband and parents. I don't know if and when I will but I cant be doing with peoples opinions on 'you don't need to do that'.
So anyway, sorry this is a bit long, I'll bring it to a close. My journey starts here. I'm 28, nearly 29. I've wasted my 20s yoyo dieting and I am hoping by the time I turn 30 I am a good way there to being the REAL Laura I deserve to be
I look forward to sharing my journey with you all! x