Topsy, I think we wait that long for our surgery while reading of everyone else's that it never feels like it will happen to us. When it gets close though it comes fast and furious and we have'nt a clue how to handle it. Emotions every where, sorting things for the "what ifs" making sure the family are sorted while you're gone and NO time for us to sit and get our heads round whats actually happening. You will be absolutely fine sweetheart once its over and done with. At least then you will be in control and enjoying the lighter, slimmer you.