update
went for my monthly meeting with the dietician this morning and i put on a kg i was a bit concerned but she said not to worry as i had still lost way over what she had expected so i had a huge sigh of relief
she asked how i was feeling and if i still wanted to go down the road of surgery told her yes this was still very important to me she then said that she was refering me to the surgeons list had to ask her to repeat what she had just said couldnt believe my ears
told me that i was discharged from her monthly meetings but recommended that i still keep my fortnightly appoinment with my practice nurse to get my weight recorded as well as keep on with the xenical in the hope to keep the weight coming down even if it is slow as it shows that i am determind to follow it through
she said there has been a slight delay with the surgeons as people she referred in April were only just getting their appoinments through for August so she reckoned i would be around November then there would be another batch of meetings to be attended but at least i now know im going to get the surgery
it wasnt till i got back to the car that it sunk in and i just burst into tears sat there for ages weeping like a loony :cry:
even now it feels strange
want to shout from the roof tops

yipee
still not sure what happens next - appointment wise will just have to wait on my letter dropping though the letter box and take it one step at a time
can just about see the end of the tunnel now ...
