I had my cry with OH the day before the op. We had discussed the dreaded moment when we would have to part company and both were dreading it. But on the day, I guess we were caught up in the whole process and just had a big hug and said "see you soon". I felt really sorry for him just having to sit there on his own waiting for me to come back to the room, so most of my concerns were about him. It helped to stop thinking about what was going to happen to me. I did feel some element of guilt about putting my family through all this, but I knew it was absolutely the right thing to do. But yeah I was scared I wouldn't see them again. I did think about the worse, and in fact, when my surgeon came to see me I got him to witness my signature on my will!!
What kept me strong was reminding myself just how many people on this site had gone through the same op and come through perfectly safe and well on the other side. My surgeon has a fantastic record so I knew I was in good hands.
I cant tell you not to be scared, it is absolutely normal to feel that. What I can say is make a list of why you are doing this and keep that at the forefront of your mind.Repeat after me, Its gonna be fine, its gonna be great!
And as you drift off to sleep think about all of us folks just longing to hear how it went and remember we are all wishing you well - feel the love!:grouphugg: