I have just come in from work and saw this thread. I have to say, and this is from the horses mouth, the real reason I wanted to leave the forum is I had had enough of the attitude of a few people who shall remain anon that drive me up the wall. I did not want to hurt anyones feelings by stating this and thought the easier option was to just leave. I love to support people, not dictate to them and it winds me up when some folk are being chased off the boards due to some very narrow minded people. Yes I am busy as I have returned to work after three months off I could still find the time to post but I get extremely frustrated that the majority on here are lovely people but it is spoilt by the small amount of know it alls. I decided that I had had enough and as I am hooked on the site it would be easier to step away. I received a call from Sarah this evening and as she knows my real reasons for leaving she asked me to stay. Its not a case of I am to ashamed to change my mind, I am an adult and can do exactly what I want. I was over whelmed by the support and good wishes I received and it saddened me that I would be losing contact with these people because of a few petty folk. I was struggling to make a decision. Now Sarah has been left feeling that people are turning against her and I will not have that. I do think honey you went a bit far, like you say thats your opinion but you started an all out war on the forum and thats what I am trying to get away from. There was no need whatsoever to be so heavey handed. The times before when I have said I was leaving were due to the same reasons. I cannot stand nasty people and some posts get down right nasty. If this makes me hated then so be it but please dont talk about me like I am some saddo who said she is leaving and then wants to stay but is too scared. And as for sending emails around about me, well that just about says it all. Remember we are people that have never met each other, friendships are all fairly new that were formed when we were going through a stressful time. I would sooner embrace someone than push them away but then thats the sort of person I am...I hope this makes sense it is late and I have been working but I think after this I shall stick to my guns and go but if I do it will be my decision and if I stay for those that are fed up with me saying I will go and then staying, dont read my threads and you wont know anything about me....to my "friends" thank you again for your kind words....xx