Perseverence thats the key, i had a relaxation tape with head phones of an evening, with that and my cpap machine, going finally used to drift off had 1 of Paul Mackennas tapes, that used to relax me lovely and then intoi a sleep and passed the time away if I was needing to keep myself busy rather than eating something I shouldn't, worked a treat and in hospital kept me calm xx stick with it not long now, you'll be that exhausted you will be looking forward to getting put to sleep because you need the rest. xx be too tired to carexx