Awwww, you guys have me on the verge of tears (happy, touched inside tears) and I love you all xx
It is really surreal to have people thinking these things because whilst I do see a change I still look in the mirror and feel so fat sometimes, my head isnt quite keeping up with my body and so I have trouble seeing what other people see, to me I am still this short fat chick. Obviously when I pull on my clothes and know that they are now a size 16 (and some 14's) I KNOW that Im not the same fat chick as I was, the numbers tally up to show me that I CANT be, my before and now pictures show me that I am not the same any more, but getting that inner part of my brain to actually realise these things is really tough, I still half expect to hear some nasty comment or a shout of "oi, fat slag" when a builder looks at me, so when they smile or just look past me like every other woman on the street it shocks me, I am still expecting the abuse and demeaning comments and to be looked up and down like they used to with repulsion, I guess that will take a long time to stop.
When I came on here tonight and saw my name as a header, the first thing I thought was "oh God, have I upset someone?" and opened the thread with trepidation. I read through it and with every word my heart swelled and a huge warm glow engulfed me and now I feel as though I am floating on a cloud. I have never doubted that this forum is my home but this outpouring of beautiful comments and lovely words has served as a reminder of how much I love this place and you all, you are all wonderful, fantastic and beautiful people that deserve the very very best that life can give and you all hold a very dear and special place in my heart xx
Thank you all for making this lil chick from Cheshire a VERY happy girl xxx
Steph xx