Mandie37
Member
Hi everyon
I thought I would start my diary today. I am due to have my band on Wednesday. Will be glad now when it's done and I can just get on with it and start my new life.
My emotions have been all over the place for the last couple of weeks leading up to surgery. I have been swinging from omg what am I doing to an excited I can't wait feeling.
I am scared and I won't lie and I am frightened of how my life is going to change in regards to being able to eat "normally" but much smaller portions.
My husband is being fantastic and is really helping with my roller coaster thoughts. To some people they may think I am choosing the easy way out but I guess it's something everybody has had to face when telling people. Most of my friends have been amazing because they know how unhappy I have been and how much I have tried. I have managed to lose a fair amount of weight twice but been unable to keep it off.
I am looking forward to not feeling unhappy every day when I open my wardrobe and see the dull boring clothes that I'm comfy in and that look horrendous. I just want to feel happy instead of miserable and the fat one on a night out.
I keep thinking this time next week I will be bandedandcantquite believe it. I will keep you posted on how it goes.
Thanks
Mandie
I thought I would start my diary today. I am due to have my band on Wednesday. Will be glad now when it's done and I can just get on with it and start my new life.
My emotions have been all over the place for the last couple of weeks leading up to surgery. I have been swinging from omg what am I doing to an excited I can't wait feeling.
I am scared and I won't lie and I am frightened of how my life is going to change in regards to being able to eat "normally" but much smaller portions.
My husband is being fantastic and is really helping with my roller coaster thoughts. To some people they may think I am choosing the easy way out but I guess it's something everybody has had to face when telling people. Most of my friends have been amazing because they know how unhappy I have been and how much I have tried. I have managed to lose a fair amount of weight twice but been unable to keep it off.
I am looking forward to not feeling unhappy every day when I open my wardrobe and see the dull boring clothes that I'm comfy in and that look horrendous. I just want to feel happy instead of miserable and the fat one on a night out.
I keep thinking this time next week I will be bandedandcantquite believe it. I will keep you posted on how it goes.
Thanks
Mandie