Well, i think i've been kidding myself.
I'm struggling, and it's time to say so. I'm wondering if i made the right decision in regards to WLS. I know, logically, i did, but my heart is telling me otherwise.
I seem to be fighting the fact that i have to eat ultra slowly. I'm not enjoying the food i CAN eat, and i'm depressed because i can't eat the food i WANT to eat. I have bread or pasta at the moment, and i get a blockage and end up vomitting. Whether it's because i'm eating too fast, or because i'm not chewing enough, or it's just that i can eat them, but it's getting me down.
I find a really nice meal, have a few spoonfuls and then have to leave the rest, which is upsetting to me.
I've had problems with my mother lately, also with our landlords. Our house has been burgled twice in the last few months, and there have been 2 more attempts to break in, the last being last sunday. We have to move, have found somewhere to go, but it means money will be extremely tight and we'll have no christmas. All of this is getting me down, and i'm struggling with the food issue, so i'm basically having something to eat every few days.
I think i'm having a vitamin and mineral defficiency, as my skin is bad, i've had a cough ever since the operation, and my throat is constantly sore. My hair is falling out more so than usual too.
I'm so ****ed up that i have forgotten to take my prozac for about week, am back to taking it now, and it's started to kick in, but i'm not coping very well. I need to stop hiding it and telling everyone i'm great, when really i'm not.
I'm sorry to everyone who has extended a hand of friendship and i have come accross as though i've rejected you. It's not that i don't appreciate you, or your support or offers, i'm just messed up and struggling to ask for help, or even just be honest with the way i'm feeling.
I'm so sorry.
I'm struggling, and it's time to say so. I'm wondering if i made the right decision in regards to WLS. I know, logically, i did, but my heart is telling me otherwise.
I seem to be fighting the fact that i have to eat ultra slowly. I'm not enjoying the food i CAN eat, and i'm depressed because i can't eat the food i WANT to eat. I have bread or pasta at the moment, and i get a blockage and end up vomitting. Whether it's because i'm eating too fast, or because i'm not chewing enough, or it's just that i can eat them, but it's getting me down.
I find a really nice meal, have a few spoonfuls and then have to leave the rest, which is upsetting to me.
I've had problems with my mother lately, also with our landlords. Our house has been burgled twice in the last few months, and there have been 2 more attempts to break in, the last being last sunday. We have to move, have found somewhere to go, but it means money will be extremely tight and we'll have no christmas. All of this is getting me down, and i'm struggling with the food issue, so i'm basically having something to eat every few days.
I think i'm having a vitamin and mineral defficiency, as my skin is bad, i've had a cough ever since the operation, and my throat is constantly sore. My hair is falling out more so than usual too.
I'm so ****ed up that i have forgotten to take my prozac for about week, am back to taking it now, and it's started to kick in, but i'm not coping very well. I need to stop hiding it and telling everyone i'm great, when really i'm not.
I'm sorry to everyone who has extended a hand of friendship and i have come accross as though i've rejected you. It's not that i don't appreciate you, or your support or offers, i'm just messed up and struggling to ask for help, or even just be honest with the way i'm feeling.
I'm so sorry.