mellyb28
Size 16 - yay!
Well...I'm a bit late to be starting this diary perhaps as I had my band fitted back on the 19th January this year. However, I have been struggling a bit the last 10 days or so and I'm hoping that by writing it all down (or typing it anyway) it will help me get a bit of focus back.
To start with, a bit of a background about me. As the thread title says I'm Mel, short for Melanie, and I'm 39 years old, 40 in June
eek. I'm married to the lovely Steve, work full time as an insurance broker, no kids, one cat!
I've had a problem with my weight since I was around 19/20 or so, basically when I left home and moved in with my then boyfriend. Over the years my weight has steadily gone up, infrequently gone down, and then back up a bit more ( a pattern that I'm sure a lot of you are familiar with ). By the time I had my operation I weighed 17stone, 9 and a half pounds and my BMI was 39.9. I decided enough was enough and I didn't want to be hitting the big four-oh being morbidly obese.
When I last weighed in I was down to 15stone 4 and half pounds, and I was pleased with how things were going (although I would have preferred it to be coming off a little faster but then I've never been very patient).
So what's the problem? Well, I can quite frequently get to this level of weight loss on the various diets I've tried over the years, I have to ditch the clothes that are now too big and climb into something smaller. In fact only last week I bought a new suit from Next for work in a size 18 - where as Christmas time I was in a size 22. However, when I get to this point I always seem to hit the self-destruct button and undo all my good work, start to pile the weight back on and end up back where I started (or worse). Why oh why do I do this? It's almost as if when I start to feel good about myself I have to do something to stop having that feeling. We human beings are complex little blighters aren't we?
Anyway, I've had a high old time of it the last 10 days or so and I've probably put a few pounds back on but I'm determined to stop the rot right now and get back on the 'band' wagon and keep on losing. I'm going to get with the program again starting in the morning and also get exercising again. I've got to overcome this hump otherwise I'll have blown eight grand! I'm going to start logging my food again on the daily banders forum but I won't weigh in officially again until the weekend. Even though I suspect it will still be an increase I'm trying to be kind to myself so that it's hopefully not too shocking.
That's it for now but I will post regularly with thoughts, feelings and other stuff that will probably be quite boring for everyone else but hopefully will allow me to exorcise my demons without feeling the need to stuff them down with food instead! Thanks for reading.
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To start with, a bit of a background about me. As the thread title says I'm Mel, short for Melanie, and I'm 39 years old, 40 in June
eek. I'm married to the lovely Steve, work full time as an insurance broker, no kids, one cat!I've had a problem with my weight since I was around 19/20 or so, basically when I left home and moved in with my then boyfriend. Over the years my weight has steadily gone up, infrequently gone down, and then back up a bit more ( a pattern that I'm sure a lot of you are familiar with ). By the time I had my operation I weighed 17stone, 9 and a half pounds and my BMI was 39.9. I decided enough was enough and I didn't want to be hitting the big four-oh being morbidly obese.
When I last weighed in I was down to 15stone 4 and half pounds, and I was pleased with how things were going (although I would have preferred it to be coming off a little faster but then I've never been very patient).
So what's the problem? Well, I can quite frequently get to this level of weight loss on the various diets I've tried over the years, I have to ditch the clothes that are now too big and climb into something smaller. In fact only last week I bought a new suit from Next for work in a size 18 - where as Christmas time I was in a size 22. However, when I get to this point I always seem to hit the self-destruct button and undo all my good work, start to pile the weight back on and end up back where I started (or worse). Why oh why do I do this? It's almost as if when I start to feel good about myself I have to do something to stop having that feeling. We human beings are complex little blighters aren't we?
Anyway, I've had a high old time of it the last 10 days or so and I've probably put a few pounds back on but I'm determined to stop the rot right now and get back on the 'band' wagon and keep on losing. I'm going to get with the program again starting in the morning and also get exercising again. I've got to overcome this hump otherwise I'll have blown eight grand! I'm going to start logging my food again on the daily banders forum but I won't weigh in officially again until the weekend. Even though I suspect it will still be an increase I'm trying to be kind to myself so that it's hopefully not too shocking.
That's it for now but I will post regularly with thoughts, feelings and other stuff that will probably be quite boring for everyone else but hopefully will allow me to exorcise my demons without feeling the need to stuff them down with food instead! Thanks for reading.
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