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Missy’s Journey!

Great NSV with the skinny jeans ;)
 
Better food day today. Soup at lunch and managed a very small bit of salmon and about a tablespoon of mash for my evening meal. I did bring up a small bit of it but I can cope with that. I’m not continually vomiting like last night so that’s a bonus. Just hope I can get through this stage in time. I’m supposed to move onto solid food on Wednesday but think I’ll speak to the dietician first and leave it until this stage improves. Feeling a little panicked that I may not cope with solid food. I have learnt that it’s very difficult trying to eat out at this stage in the diet. I had to ask the restaurant to alter what was on the menu so it wasn’t covered in creme fraiche. The look on the waitress’s face was a picture! She was even more bamboozled when I didn’t want so much as a glass of water. I had to get my hubby to eat my salmon as it looked rude leaving the majority of my dinner after putting in a special request. It’s also not good spending £17 on a meal that you barely touch. Soup of the day was leek and potato, which I couldn’t chance as it usually comes unblended. I have felt so sorry for my husband this weekend. Walking round endless eating places checking menus and then me being sick most of the night last night. I hope my eating is better by the time I go abroad with my friend in April as it’s going to be very hard to explain! On the plus side, it’s great not pigging out or feeling the need to. I would usually eat endless amounts of junk just because I’m away for the weekend and this would make my weekend even better. However, the after effects make the weekend a disaster as my binge would continue probably for a good week and I’d gain an obscene amount of weight, which would then put my back in my starve/binge cycle. I had a tea at Costa and a Lindt (ball) chocolate. It’s my first chocolate and it was satisfying to just have one. I had no desire to have more as I normally would and it was good to know that I could do that and not bother. I don’t aim to make a habit of it but one of my problems was that I would totally eradicate things from my diet for weeks/months and then I would cave and binge. An awful cycle to be in and one I hope will never return. So having that one chocolate today was me testing myself. How would it feel? Would I resist from having more? How would my body react? How would it taste? The answer is I felt normal! I felt satisfaction that it was more than enough. I passed my mini test. I don’t have any desire to eat more. That is such a great feeling!
 
Week 8...
The good news ....Another 4lb loss this week! I’m pretty amazed at that after losing 4lb last week. I am expecting 2 slow weeks ahead as I know this is how my body works from years of dieting. I am now 14st 1lb with a total loss of 3st 1lb. I’m also in the 1s at 197lbs :D and I’m no longer obese and am now overweight. I have 1st 8lb to lose to my original goal weight. I will probably go lower than this but that’s the first goal I set myself. I have 1st 13lb to a healthy BMI of 25.
The not-so-good news...
Well, I am still struggling with the soft food stage. Last night, I had a matchbox size piece of haddock, which I’d poached in milk and 2 tablespoons of carrot & swede mash with gravy. I ended up being sick for the next few hours and was unable to take lanzoprazole or a drink before bed. I didn’t eat all of this portion and I stop when I get the growl in my stomach. Maybe the growl is the signal of too much and not the full signal? I’ve been using the growl as the warning that I’m full as it’s difficult to tell as I’m eating. I am going to try reducing this portion to 2 tablespoons of food. I don’t feel sick as I’m eating: it starts about 10/15 minutes later. I’m going to try sweet potato mash and beans today and see how that goes. I have my dietician phone call tomorrow morning so will wait till then for further advice. I’m supposed to be moving onto crunchier food today but can’t see that happening just yet. I may be better with Melba toast or something? I’m feeling really miffed that I can’t get over this stage and I’m hoping it’s just that my body needs a little longer and that there’s not a problem! I’ve had 4.5 years of struggling with a band, being unable to eat out without being sick or feeling total panic about socialising. These sickness episodes are similar to band struggles and my husband actually asked me if it was still there the other day. I actually dreamt the other night that my husband left me because he was fed up of it all. He’s so patient and understanding but it’s impacted our life so much. We’ve missed so many meals out with friends because I’m either on a VLCD or felt too fat from bingeing on slider foods that I would become so stressed about being sick when out for a meal that I wouldn’t be able to eat and would be sick as the band would restrict due to the stress. This is the main reason I had revision surgery alongside losing/maintaining weight loss. I chose the bypass in the hope that I wouldn’t need further revision surgery and I could get away from this sickness cycle. Fingers crossed this is just part of the healing process and not a stricture or anything. I can’t seem to find much on here with regards to people struggling at this stage so if anyone reading this has had a similar struggle it would be great to hear from you!
 
Just had my phone call with the dietician. I do wish the same one would ring each time. It would provide better continuity. I explained my food mishaps. She seems to think that I’m not eating regularly enough. Which has definitely been the pattern in the last 2 weeks as I’m fed up of being sick. When I started the soft food stage, I thought it was better to introduce 1 soft food meal at a time. I’ve never progressed from this due to sickness. The dietician said this is not enough for my oesophagus. It needs to be contracting throughout the day. I should be having 3 meals and 2 snacks. I’m not sure how I can physically fit that in. I find mornings are difficult to eat. She also insisted I no longer have my soup for lunch yet the last dietician said I could continue with one liquid meal. I told her I can’t have hours of being sick whilst in work. I have 4 days now before being back in work where I can give this a go. She’s advised I do at least another week on soft food and shouldn’t move on until I’ve got over this stage. She also thinks I’ve become anxious about it, which isn’t helping. My anxiety has only slipped in the last few days as I was expecting to have mastered this after 2 weeks and I have felt panicked that I’m not. I was also advised to have a hot drink 30 minutes before to relax my oesophagus. I have gone off Arla yoghurt but it looks like I need to reintroduce it. She’s not happy with mullerlight (which I tried yesterday) but is happy to advise me to eat a ready meal! Told her that’s not happening either. I have my phone call with Mr Halstead a week today and the dietician is going to phone me next Wednesday. I know I’m not eating anywhere near enough food as I’m having 2 meals a day and bringing one of those back up. I will give it a go and see what happens.
 
Just had my phone call with the dietician. I do wish the same one would ring each time. It would provide better continuity. I explained my food mishaps. She seems to think that I’m not eating regularly enough. Which has definitely been the pattern in the last 2 weeks as I’m fed up of being sick. When I started the soft food stage, I thought it was better to introduce 1 soft food meal at a time. I’ve never progressed from this due to sickness. The dietician said this is not enough for my oesophagus. It needs to be contracting throughout the day. I should be having 3 meals and 2 snacks. I’m not sure how I can physically fit that in. I find mornings are difficult to eat. She also insisted I no longer have my soup for lunch yet the last dietician said I could continue with one liquid meal. I told her I can’t have hours of being sick whilst in work. I have 4 days now before being back in work where I can give this a go. She’s advised I do at least another week on soft food and shouldn’t move on until I’ve got over this stage. She also thinks I’ve become anxious about it, which isn’t helping. My anxiety has only slipped in the last few days as I was expecting to have mastered this after 2 weeks and I have felt panicked that I’m not. I was also advised to have a hot drink 30 minutes before to relax my oesophagus. I have gone off Arla yoghurt but it looks like I need to reintroduce it. She’s not happy with mullerlight (which I tried yesterday) but is happy to advise me to eat a ready meal! Told her that’s not happening either. I have my phone call with Mr Halstead a week today and the dietician is going to phone me next Wednesday. I know I’m not eating anywhere near enough food as I’m having 2 meals a day and bringing one of those back up. I will give it a go and see what happens.
So sorry you are struggling. I am the opposite as I don’t really feel a restriction very much which is very frustrating and worries me that I will gain the weight back again. The dietician at Luton gave me good advice last week to up fluids, eat slower, up protein, leave carbs out. I hope you feel better soon, it is a real learning curve xx
 
So sorry you are struggling. I am the opposite as I don’t really feel a restriction very much which is very frustrating and worries me that I will gain the weight back again. The dietician at Luton gave me good advice last week to up fluids, eat slower, up protein, leave carbs out. I hope you feel better soon, it is a real learning curve xx
Thanks @Maria61. Have you never had restriction? Have you always been able to eat good amounts? Surely you couldn’t at my stage (2 months out). Isn’t it strange how we all react differently. The post op diets all vary too from one surgeon to another. I’m glad mine has been 4 weeks liquid, 2 purée & 2 soft. I think it’s the right amount of time for me... although I have another week of soft. I’ve had a cup of tea and 30 minutes later I had a cheese omelette which consisted of 1 large egg, milk & 50% low fat cheese. I only ate half of this with a tablespoon of chopped tomatoes that I mushed down. It’s the first food I’ve had that has stayed down and no frothing at all. The first time my stomach isn’t going crazy or my chest feels tight. I’ll measure the cheese next time. Will have the other half mid afternoon. Felt satisfied from it and didn’t actually get the growl in my stomach. The dietician did say we all move at different rates onto the different stages. When I look at what Ian is eating in his 3rd week it’s the stage I’m supposed to be at and I’m 8 weeks! I can’t believe you don’t have any restriction. That must be difficult. Have you spoken to your provider?
 
Hi @Missyme, in the notes I got from Luton, they say that symptoms of reflux and vomiting normally means that you are eating too much or eating too quickly. I can vouch for both of these. Hope it settles down and you can move forward.
 
Thanks @Maria61. Have you never had restriction? Have you always been able to eat good amounts? Surely you couldn’t at my stage (2 months out). Isn’t it strange how we all react differently. The post op diets all vary too from one surgeon to another. I’m glad mine has been 4 weeks liquid, 2 purée & 2 soft. I think it’s the right amount of time for me... although I have another week of soft. I’ve had a cup of tea and 30 minutes later I had a cheese omelette which consisted of 1 large egg, milk & 50% low fat cheese. I only ate half of this with a tablespoon of chopped tomatoes that I mushed down. It’s the first food I’ve had that has stayed down and no frothing at all. The first time my stomach isn’t going crazy or my chest feels tight. I’ll measure the cheese next time. Will have the other half mid afternoon. Felt satisfied from it and didn’t actually get the growl in my stomach. The dietician did say we all move at different rates onto the different stages. When I look at what Ian is eating in his 3rd week it’s the stage I’m supposed to be at and I’m 8 weeks! I can’t believe you don’t have any restriction. That must be difficult. Have you spoken to your provider?
Hi Missyme, I feel restriction mainly if I ever go out to eat but not generally at home. The surgeon at my 6 week check asked me if I was hungry and I said I suppose I was not and he was not concerned but I really thought I would feel a restriction much more than I do.
 
Hi @Missyme, in the notes I got from Luton, they say that symptoms of reflux and vomiting normally means that you are eating too much or eating too quickly. I can vouch for both of these. Hope it settles down and you can move forward.
Hi Ian, I think I ate too much on the first couple of meals but haven’t done since. I’ve managed a 1 egg omelette split into two meals today and half an Arla yoghurt. I was going to attempt fish for tea, but got so busy with house stuff that I’m only just eating. Too late to eat fish so I’m having some porridge. I have done all the eating slow, tiny amounts etc. I think my problem is not eating at regular intervals. Eating no breakfast and soup for lunch isn’t allowing my oesophagus to contract. The dietician thinks that it’s a shock to it when I’m eating at 7pm at night. I’ve not done great with the eating today but what’s gone down has stayed down. Hope all is going well for you and you’ve mastered the art of soft food consumption!
 
Hi Missyme, I feel restriction mainly if I ever go out to eat but not generally at home. The surgeon at my 6 week check asked me if I was hungry and I said I suppose I was not and he was not concerned but I really thought I would feel a restriction much more than I do.
Hi Maria, I would contact your surgeon and see what s/he says. You’re only 5 months out so I would expect to still have restriction. At 6 weeks post op you probably still had swelling from surgery.
 
Week 8.5...
Since my discussion with the dietician, my eating has been much better. I think I’d got myself worried that there was a problem. I seem much more relaxed when eating and really taking my time. I’m managing to eat a 1 egg omelette with low fat cheese but only have half of this at a time with 1 or 2 spoons of chopped tomatoes. I’m really enjoying it and it’s such a relief to be able to eat something without being sick. I then have the other half a few hours later. I also think my body wasn’t really ready for the soft food stage and something suddenly feels more at ease inside. Like it is suddenly ready. I had friends round yesterday and they didn’t go till late so I didn’t want to chance eating fish/meat late on. I had some Krisp rolls with Philadelphia lightest on. They tasted quite sweet and the phili worked well with them. I managed 2 and was full and no problems. They’re 56 calories each and 9g of carbs. I will see how I go with them but at this stage I am just glad I’m finding some normal foods to eat. When I can move into salads and veg life will be easier and I’ll be able to eat more on the go and get more smaller meals in throughout the day. I’m finding it impossible to do that at the minute and often forget to eat when I’m so busy. I feel like the weight is suddenly falling off the last couple of weeks... we’ll my clothes certainly feel like it is.
 
I'm so happy you are able to finally enjoy some food and not be sick.
 
I'm so happy you are able to finally enjoy some food and not be sick.
Thanks @slimkim finally getting there! Hope all is well with you. I’m going to head over to your thread to check.
 
Week 9...
Finally turned a corner and have been managing to eat soft food! I really think my body just wasn’t ready for it the last couple of weeks. It feels so different when I eat now. I have another call with the dietician today and my surgeon tomorrow. I have actually felt a bit hungry the last couple of days. Not sure if this is physical or in my head? Could be that I need to move on to the crunchier types of food. I’ve been experimenting with carbs a little and had mash potato the last couple of nights with my salmon. Big move for me as I’m a carb phobic! I’ve also had 2 krisprolls with Philadelphia on and they taste so good. They taste quite sweet and work well with the phili. Well, I’m amazed I’ve lost 3lb this week as I’ve actually been keeping food down and was convinced I’d gain! It could still come yet! I’ve gone into the 13s! So pleased. Im now 13st 12. 1st 5lb to target. I wasn’t expecting to lose at all this week after 2 weeks of losing 4 each week. I am definitely expecting a stall or even a gain next week. It seems surreal to lose 11lb in 3 weeks when it’s not the first couple of weeks of dieting. My body usually stops losing from the 3rd week of any diet. I can really tell in my clothes... they are now falling off me... literally! Here’s to hopefully moving on to some crunchier food! Onwards and downwards.
 
That's great that you are so close to goal so soon. Amazing results. Congratulations on conquering the soft foods.
 
Week 10...
I returned to the gym on Sunday and haven’t been since well before surgery! Wow! What an effort it was and I’ve ached like mad since. I really feel I need to start toning-lots of wobbly bits. This is not only from this weight loss but from my heaviest at 22st 8. I have excess skin although I’ve had my stomach and arms taken care of. My stomach was done 11 years ago and I’ve gained and lost weight since so that’s not as good as it was.
Food this week has been hit n miss. I’ve moved on to the solid stage but I suppose not completely. I can eat fruit n fibre cereal and krisprolls with phili on but still having some trouble with fish/meat/veg/salad. The things I want and need to eat! One day I’m fine the next day I’m sick. I’m assuming this is part of my body getting used to the different stages. Some people don’t seem to have any sickness though. I’ve realised I can’t take things to work that require a lot of chewing. My lunchtimes are too busy and I’m often working through them. I had a sick episode at work and then another where the salad just didn’t sit right and I kept regurgitating all afternoon and was then sick at home. I was fed up of the sickness last night. I had an aloe vera colon cleanse tablet. They’re a natural remedy and work well without getting the side effects of stomach cramps etc. The tablet is quite large and my pouch didn’t like it! This was before my tea and I was then sick for a while, which was aniseed flavour! Yuk! When this settled, I tried to eat a very small piece of salmon (third of a fillet) with some veg. That also came back up! I couldn’t do the work I needed to do and ended up going to bed.
Anyway, I’ve had quite a few compliments at work this week about weight loss. I’ve lost a 1lb this week and I’m happy with that after my good losses over the last 3 weeks. I’m now 13st 11. 12lb loss during February and 3st 5 since LRD. Hoping for 2lb next week to hit 3 and a half stone.
 
Being sick is something I struggle with before op. Have no idea how I will cope after. All this trail & error is a bit scary if I am honest.
Keep up the good work one day at a time you got this!!!
 
Being sick is something I struggle with before op. Have no idea how I will cope after. All this trail & error is a bit scary if I am honest.
Keep up the good work one day at a time you got this!!!
I’m not good with being sick, but this is more like regurgitation of food so it’s not like stomach wrenching sickness although I’ve had a couple of those! On the plus side, I don’t want to eat after it! Some people don’t seem to be sick at all and move through the stages with ease and much quicker than me. I will get there in my own time.
 
Congratulations on getting back to the gym. What sort of exercises did you do? I hate cardio and I'm looking forward to strength training when I get back to the gym.

2 months and 3st 5lbs loss! How fab is that?!?! You are doing great.
 
Congratulations on getting back to the gym. What sort of exercises did you do? I hate cardio and I'm looking forward to strength training when I get back to the gym.

2 months and 3st 5lbs loss! How fab is that?!?! You are doing great.
Hi! Hope you’re well. I do the C25K app on the treadmill and will do other cardio like the rowing machine, bike, x trainer etc. I used to do the body pump class (weights routine). I do the weights machine and some floor work. I’m terrible at keeping it up. My job is so demanding I struggle to go. I need to start toning though!
 
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