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A Chance to Start Again

Bling Babe

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Ok, so the scales moved this week -4 lbs, so yay!

At the church we have a 'rogues' gallery' with pictures of the staff and important people. My picture was taken about a month before my surgery and I look at it now and almost don't recognize myself. It's funny because back then I didn't think I had a really fat face, guess I was wrong! lol I really need to get it changed now.

@Sarnie I can't even get to see a doc for a med review. Hell, they seem to be actively keeping people away even though my letter from Luton clearly said they wanted me to see a GP. My GP surgery is useless, but most around here seem to be. Guess I'll find out in October if there's a problem. I'm thinking of weaning myself off my BP meds and see how it goes. If it creeps up, I'll go on them again.

I tried doing a beginner's cross training session the other day. Oh my sweet goodness! My legs are still in agony two days later! Squats and lunges are from Satan himself! I'm still waiting to hear when the pool I use will be opening. It looks like it will be in August and you have to pre-book, which is fair enough. The pool I use is pretty tiny, just 3/4 lanes wide and only 16 metres long, so they won't be able to fit too many in. I suspect there won't be a huge rush to get back as most who use that pool are over 70 and a lot are still sticking close to home.

We had a communion service on Wednesday and clearly most everyone who turned up thought that me and the office is exempt from social distancing. The number of them traipsing through... I was actually quite upset by it. Next week I'll have to get there earlier and make sure to put up my door bar thingy to keep them out. It also is getting tiresome hearing how I'm disappearing or wasting away, but I guess I half expected that because a lot of them haven't seen me since before lockdown, so my weight loss over that time is more obvious to them.

Overall, though, I feel tired and have been struggling a bit. I've been more prone to tears than I ever have been in my entire life, which is kind of annoying to be honest. My husband is depressed, which isn't great, but we've been here before. In times like these I think of the words of Julian of Norwich, "...but all shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of thing shall be well."
Wow what a great loss, well done, you must look like a different person to those who haven’t seen you since lockdown, you do look incredible, absolutely amazing, you made me laugh with your squats and lunges, it does get better but if it’s not your thing that’s fair enough, swimming is really good for the whole body, I’m so happy I’ve booked my first 6 gym sessions, oh my days I never ever thought I’d be feeling pleased about going to the gym!
i hope hubby feels brighter soon, depression is a terrible illness, and you too, maybe the weight loss has affected your hormones which in turn has made you more emotiona. and as for people not social distancing well what can I say, they seem to have no idea of the consequence of not doing it, I wouldn’t mind if it was only themselves they were putting at risk but it’s not it’s everyone else Grrrrrrrr.
without going into too much detail we had a patient today who was getting really angry, shouting and refusing to wear a face covering, I should say that 99.9% of our patients are lovely people who become friends over time, anyway he said he wouldn’t stay if he had to wear one, I know what I would have said if I was in charge.....see ya later, bye bye ! Anyway I’m not in charge so it wasn’t my call I did however point out to him that this was a government ruling not a hospital ruling xxxx
 

OkieGirl

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Wow what a great loss, well done, you must look like a different person to those who haven’t seen you since lockdown, you do look incredible, absolutely amazing, you made me laugh with your squats and lunges, it does get better but if it’s not your thing that’s fair enough, swimming is really good for the whole body, I’m so happy I’ve booked my first 6 gym sessions, oh my days I never ever thought I’d be feeling pleased about going to the gym!
i hope hubby feels brighter soon, depression is a terrible illness, and you too, maybe the weight loss has affected your hormones which in turn has made you more emotiona. and as for people not social distancing well what can I say, they seem to have no idea of the consequence of not doing it, I wouldn’t mind if it was only themselves they were putting at risk but it’s not it’s everyone else Grrrrrrrr.
without going into too much detail we had a patient today who was getting really angry, shouting and refusing to wear a face covering, I should say that 99.9% of our patients are lovely people who become friends over time, anyway he said he wouldn’t stay if he had to wear one, I know what I would have said if I was in charge.....see ya later, bye bye ! Anyway I’m not in charge so it wasn’t my call I did however point out to him that this was a government ruling not a hospital ruling xxxx
I'm getting to the stage where if I catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror, either face only or whole body I do a double take. I have changed so much over the last year and a half and am almost, literally, half the woman I was. I'm more than happy to put up with the minor annoyances that come with the surgery because the benefits far outstrip them.

I finally quit hurting and walking around the house like a decrepit cowboy who's been on the trail too long and so did another cross training session yesterday and I'm not hurting like I did the first time, so... progress? I'll do it again in a couple of days. Still can't wait to get swimming again.

Richie's a bit better and although he's still working hard (it's just part of who he is, unfortunately) he is also stepping back from some of the extra work he'd taken on for a bit and I think having some of that pressure off is helping. He's still upset and annoyed by some of the changes that's going on with his job at the garage though and that really is the source of his depression and always has been. Maybe one of these days he can finally get away from there. It's been our hope for years, though.

You know, I don't get these people who are so against wearing masks. I've got a lot of friends and family in the US who, no word of a lie, are shouting and screaming on Facebook about how being told to wear a mask is a violation of their personal freedoms, that Big Pharma is shafting us all and that all diseases could be cured but they are stopping the scientists (but the scientists are actually in cahoots with Big Pharma) but even if they could cure everything they would refuse the treatment because of potential tracking devices in said treatment. Oh, and stores asking people to pay by card only is a way to force us into a cashless society and usher in the New World Order and how we're all going to end up with the mark of the beast (gotta love borderline fundie Christians...). Also, social democracy will most definitely lead us right into outright communism. This is just the tip of the iceberg of conspiracy theories. Some of these people I have known my whole life and am shocked by their insanity because they never did or said any of this crap when I was younger! It's exhausting and so I've started avoiding Facebook as well and I put some of the most vocal/annoying on mute for a month.

One day life will be 'normal' again. I hope.
 

Bling Babe

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Some people are Truly unbelievable and almost laughable, hey well done for hitting the cross trainer again, when does your pool open, I done my first gym session this morning.
im not surprised you have to do a double take, you really do look like a different person and very beautiful too xx
 

OkieGirl

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Some people are Truly unbelievable and almost laughable, hey well done for hitting the cross trainer again, when does your pool open, I done my first gym session this morning.
im not surprised you have to do a double take, you really do look like a different person and very beautiful too xx
The gym is opening up next week but the pool is still a question, although they keep saying later in August, which is fine. How was your first gym session back?
 

Bling Babe

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The gym is opening up next week but the pool is still a question, although they keep saying later in August, which is fine. How was your first gym session back?
Aw I hope it’s soon for you, my first session was great (did I say the words great and gym in one sentenc) I felt very safe at 5.30am there were only 4 of us there. X
 
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