Dixie's New Journey in Sussex

[tuu]

Hi guys
I wanted to start a diary about my journey that I have literally this week just started.
All my adult life I have been overweight struggling to become that much sought after slim girl that everyone thinks you should be.....I've always been healthy I don't smoke or drink much but I LOVE FOOD and there is my problem. I hate the fact I can't seem to change I always end up on a roller coster of losing a bit and putting it on again.
I lost alot of weight about 10 years ago ironically when I was expecting my first little boy but sadly he wasn't meant to stay with us and we lost him. From that point my life has spiralled into a never ending food fest I know I eat when I'm unhappy and it was like I ate for comfort even tho I knew I shouldnt. I was told by specialist that I needed to.lose weight and woukd have more chance to become pregnant again if I did and God knows I tried really hard but something in my subconscious seemed to stop me . I truly believe sunconcieously I was preventing it as I knew if I didn't fall pregnant again as much as I really wanted to if I was fat and didn't fall I wouldn't have to deal with the heartache that I had before. I truly believe the nhs need to recognise the fact that most food issue are related to uncontrollable sub concious feelings and counselling help may help towards how we deal with food. Ohhh I don't know but just maybe anyway...here I am knowing that if I don't do something drastic I'm going to end up ill.
I just want to be able to live my life and not just exist ....to run about and not worry about can i fit in that chair or has the place we are staying g got a proper wide door on the shower cubicle so I can fit in...I've bee to.places that haven't and what a nightmare having to strip wash and not shower ...really awful.
so hopefully this week after plucking up the courage to talk to my GP my journey will start ....if you've got this far in my ramblings thanks for reading and would be lovely to hear your experiences as I'm new to this ...I shall update my diary as time goes on ...thankyou xx

 

[los in it]

Hello dixie
What a frank and honest 1st entry. Your story will touch the hearts and minds of many people on here
I wish you peace and happiness and that you get all the things you wish for
I look forward to seeing your next entry

 

[tuu]

Hello dixie
What a frank and honest 1st entry. Your story will touch the hearts and minds of many people on here
I wish you peace and happiness and that you get all the things you wish for
I look forward to seeing your next entry

Thank you so much .....I've been reading loads of journey posts and everyone seems so.lovely and helpful it's great to know there are others our there feeling the same and experiencing the same as you...makes you feel almost normal ...lol

 

[tuu]

so last night had really good chat with my mum ..who has not been keen since I mentioned to her that I was considering WLS but I told her about this amazing group and how I can ask questions and find out all sorts of information.
since I braved it and spoke to my GP re a referAl to be honest it's all I can think about...I really can't imagine EVER being slimmer it's been so long ive been trapped in this fat body armour I can't imagine life without it ...having said that I do 'dream' of my life without it and how it might feel.
what are the things that spur you on to go ahead with this life changing surgery?
If I am lucky enough to be excepted for WLS I think the best change for me apart from the obvious being slimmer healthier will be the fact I will feel cool and even cold .....I hate the fact I get so overly hot all the time and sweat from my head it's so embarrassing ..I envy those that say ...ohhh it's a bit chilly isn't it? ...your joking.. are you talking to me? not in this fat suit it isn't!!!

 

[tuu]

so last night my husband brings home newspaper article about a lady who's had gastric bypass and has list half her body weight gone from 20st to 10st and HATES it!!! she says she feels so I'll all the time and hates her baggy skin which she's found will cost 20k to remove and she is desperately trying to put on weight to fill out the baggy skin... ....weird how your thought process switches when you read this sort of thing found myself thinking ohhh maybe I should try harder to lose the weight by diet....it doesn't take alot to tip me ....this week also had blood results back for diabetic bloods and cholesterol which again are good diabetic is 5.8 and cholesterol is once again 2.8 so WHY am I on 20mg statin ..must book appointment to talk to dr .....there's my ramblings for now ohhh and most important spoke to surgery and Dr has done my referal to chichester so fingers crossed should hear soon .....

 

[vickyryz]

Hi Dixie
I've just plucked up the courage to talk to my GP as well - after years of yo yo dieting, trying everything under the sun and simply ending up being frustrated about the way I look, I've had enough and think WLS (the band) is the way forward for me.
Have you had your initial MDT meeting yet? I'm in West Sussex and have it tomorrow. Very nervous about what they might tell me in regards to waiting times. Would love to hear from you and possibly meet up for a coffee if you're keen as I've been desperately trying to find someone in the same trust as me x

 

[florabell]

Hello tuu, your first post really touched me. My main reason for getting surgery as I want to be a mum, my weight was holding me back and like you I kept sabotaging myself. I finally realised that I needed medical intervention to stop me from binging. I am sorry about your angel baby also. ((Hugs))

Good luck on your journey xx

 

[Bear]

Great posts Tutu and loads of luck on your journey.

Re: the article your husband read. What I have found is being overweight is only part of the problem. Hopefully, going the NHS route you may get some counselling to help you through all the changes.

I'm afraid I'm one of the ones that have lost the weight, but still aren't content. I officially have a healthy bmi, but having had over 25 years of being anywhere between 10 and 19 stone, I'm not happy with my body. BUT - there's no way on gods earth I want to go back to being large again. So whatever problems happen after losing weight, they're better than carrying the weight.

And the cold - am constantly freezing. Was cold through a lot of the summer. Hopefully it won't be long and you'll be cold too. x

 

[tuu]

Hi guys
I wanted to start a diary about my journey that I have literally this week just started.
All my adult life I have been overweight struggling to become that much sought after slim girl that everyone thinks you should be.....I've always been healthy I don't smoke or drink much but I LOVE FOOD and there is my problem. I hate the fact I can't seem to change I always end up on a roller coster of losing a bit and putting it on again.
I lost alot of weight about 10 years ago ironically when I was expecting my first little boy but sadly he wasn't meant to stay with us and we lost him. From that point my life has spiralled into a never ending food fest I know I eat when I'm unhappy and it was like I ate for comfort even tho I knew I shouldnt. I was told by specialist that I needed to.lose weight and woukd have more chance to become pregnant again if I did and God knows I tried really hard but something in my subconscious seemed to stop me . I truly believe sunconcieously I was preventing it as I knew if I didn't fall pregnant again as much as I really wanted to if I was fat and didn't fall I wouldn't have to deal with the heartache that I had before. I truly believe the nhs need to recognise the fact that most food issue are related to uncontrollable sub concious feelings and counselling help may help towards how we deal with food. Ohhh I don't know but just maybe anyway...here I am knowing that if I don't do something drastic I'm going to end up ill.
I just want to be able to live my life and not just exist ....to run about and not worry about can i fit in that chair or has the place we are staying g got a proper wide door on the shower cubicle so I can fit in...I've bee to.places that haven't and what a nightmare having to strip wash and not shower ...really awful.
so hopefully this week after plucking up the courage to talk to my GP my journey will start ....if you've got this far in my ramblings thanks for reading and would be lovely to hear your experiences as I'm new to this ...I shall update my diary as time goes on ...thankyou xx

Well I'm back on here again after waiting nearly 9 months I have my full day assessment at st Richards Chichester this week ....I don't really know what to expect so any advice would be great ..I have to be there at 9am so we are traveling the day before and staying overnight at a travel lodge nearby. I'm nervous and excited at the same time. My husband is coming with me..has anyone else taken their partner with them for this initial appointment? I will be seeing all the team the bariatric nurse tge consultant the anethestist and the phsicologist o have completed the physiological assessment survey and sent it back. Has anyone been to st richards and done this day and can let me know what to expect? both scared and excited ......

 

[countrywench]

Hey Dixie !
Welcome back ! My hubby came with me to each appointment , then he could hear the same things as me ..
What kind of surgery are you having ?

 

[tuu]

Hi thankyou...I'm not sure yet as just going thus week for my first full day assessment ...I gather this is where I will kearney about each type of surgery and discuss everything....I am erring towards bypass as I think it could be better for me.xx

 

[Mrs Noodles]

Welcome back and good luck with your appointment this week. Please log on and update us on how you've got on.

Best of luck x

 

[tuu]

Well this morning I have been dojng alot of research I woke up early and everything was rushing through my head...so I Google lots of questions and found this amazing site ..so here it is for anyone who may be interested it's all based about the bypass as that is the surgery I am hoping to have if approved but have to wait to see about that..
http://www.obesitycoverage.com/the-experts-guide-to-gastric-bypass/

hope this helps xxx

 

[tuu]

Hmmmm spent the evening with husband and parents and it's n9t been easy trying to get them to.understand how I feel and why I am starting this journey ....is anyone else having this issue ...don't get me wrong they all day it's my choice and they will support me buy I know deep.down from how they react and what they say they would rather I tried other routes first ...and I'm like do you not realise how hard it is to yo yo diet your whole life losing weight then putting it back on again with more ....I'm totally fed up with it and it seems always like a losing battle and I try to.explain that I don't want to be like this and if it was as easy as just cutting down and eating healthy and if I could sustain that don't you think Iwould....I am positive I have some physiological block when it comes to losing and keeping weight off. I am so.worried if I'm accepted that I won't have their true support to go through this as I know.it's going to be really hard. I'm just hopeing that at my.MDT my husband will listen and hopefully start to.realise how important this is and if I'm acepted how I will.need his support to get through this. I've told them all they need to read up about it so they understand it more. ....just wish their reactions where different I guess they are just apprehensive about me maybe having major surgery has anyone got any advice on what I can say to them that may help. xxx

 

[tuu]

Well it's here the day of my MDT appointment so I guess by the end of the day I shall know if it's a yes or a no ...gosh I'm really nervous but also quite excited that this could be the start of something so massive....xx

 

[tuu]

OMG I GOT APPROVED.......long day but I got approved to have a Gastric Bypass and I am now on the 6 month waiting list .I'm so so excited and the team at St richards in Chichester were just amazing especially Harry the Consultant he was wonderful and so informative ...my husband came and joined me at all my appointments with the team and asked questions and he feels better now he knows more about everything I think his mind has been put at rest.
Wow what a day ....Some changes I have to start implementing is to separate food and drink as that's a big one for me I always drink at least a pint of water with my meals so need to start stopping that and wait 30 mins after eating until I drink and also to stop the crisps...lol and to slow down and make my meal take 30 mins to eat. so just starting that tonight.

 

[countrywench]

Congratulations ! You must be so excited !

 

[niccie]

Terrific news!

 

[tuu]

thanks girls I'm so excited.....I guess now I'll gave loads of questions I perhaps forgot to ask at MDT.....what are your journeys? xxxx

 

[countrywench]

I Changed my view on food as soon as my short journey started .. I imagined I had already had the gastric band in place , chewed slow and long , high carb food became almost a poison in my mind .
It's important to get your head in the game and see the end goal .. Fighting fit and ready ..
Do exactly as your team tells you and follow it to the letter as this is for your own safety and well being ..
i did have a ' last meal ' lol . On the Sunday before my op I had a burger and small amount of chips from that burger van on Portsdown hill in Portsmouth .. But only ate half of each , fed the rest to the masses of birds there ..
It's going to be an amazing journey ! So pleased for you .
Xxxxxxx