All booked and now on that road of no return

[Lisa876]

The worst ones for me are:
- constantly feeling self conscious to the point of avoiding my reflection in mirrors
- not being able to dress the way that i like, tents are NOT fashionable or complimentary
- the inner thigh of all leggings/jeans/trousers rubbing away to nothingness
- no libido as eve though OH constantly reassures me and tell me how beautiful I am, I've convinced myself he's simply desperate for some action, and/or a very good liar
- not being as physical and sporty as I used to be. In another life I played netball and volleyball competitively now sometimes the hardest thing I do is trying to get up out of someone's deep/low, plush sofa or out a car.

 

[Lisa876]

oh and definitely the chair and smelly issues too

 

[Butterfly_lady]

Anyone else do the 1.......2........3........... heave to get out of a chair/off a sofa?? I so used to, now at a size 8 I skip out of my chair so easily

 

[countrywench]

I have a work mate who is probably as big as me , and she smells . And I don't mean a little bit . She smells of that rash under folds of skin , smells of unwashed female , body odour , smelly hair . She is a lovely lovely person with a heart of gold but it's so hard to be around her for long .. Her clothes , we think , she shares with her adult son , one pair of jogging bottoms that they seem to share ..
Why is it that some people just don't care about personal hygiene ? I have never understood that . A bar of soap costs 50p ? And a shower takes less than than 5 mins . How do they go to to bed every night like that ?
She has been told by the boss on several occasions but she has slipped back into her slovenly ways again

 

[Butterfly_lady]

I have a work mate who is probably as big as me , and she smells . And I don't mean a little bit . She smells of that rash under folds of skin , smells of unwashed female , body odour , smelly hair . She is a lovely lovely person with a heart of gold but it's so hard to be around her for long .. Her clothes , we think , she shares with her adult son , one pair of jogging bottoms that they seem to share ..
Why is it that some people just don't care about personal hygiene ? I have never understood that . A bar of soap costs 50p ? And a shower takes less than than 5 mins . How do they go to to bed every night like that ?
She has been told by the boss on several occasions but she has slipped back into her slovenly ways again

Urg thats gross when I was big I showered at least daily if it was a warm day it'd be twice! Now its usally once a day as I'm never warm lol

 

[beepbeepcat]

Oh gosh, it can't be nice. Maybe there are other reasons other than can't be bothered.

 

[countrywench]

Had my pre op done , yeahhh !
Did a heart trace , and a swab up the nose and the groin ( using different swabs hehehe )
Then took 6 vials of blood ! Well , where I hadn't had any sugar or much to eat at that time , as soon as he stuck that needle in I went all hot and then all cold and though , oh crap , I'm going to faint ! But the nurse knew I was looking sickly and quickly got me some ice cold water , bless him ..
I have had a slight cheat this evening . I have been dreaming about tomato soup , drooling over the thought of it , and I got myself a tin , chopped cooked breast into it , nuked it in micro and then , because I had a brain fart , I put 2 dry fried eggs on top !
And you know what ! It's was so amazing .. Hit the right spot ..

Anyone know if the carbs are bad in Heinz tomato soup ?

Another 6 days of this diet to go .. I think I'm going to be ok

 

[blossom11]

Hi Mindy. So sorry I've missed this messages. So glad you're pre op went well.
For hospital I've got pj's, slippers, make up, toothbrush, toiletries, shower gel, anti back gel, windeze (apparently wind can be very bad in left shoulder) a book. Hope this helps!

Doing so well on your pre op...10lb is brill. 9 days and 7 days...it's come round quick!!

Take care lovely x x x x

 

[Lisa876]

omg, I'm so conscious of it I'm constantly sniffing myself - and sometimes not very discreetly :-/

 

[niccie]

Not being confident in a group of people, not going to one school reunion because I don't want them all to see how big I am. Being so bloody hot all the time and not coping when I get a fast, hot flush.... Now I'm mainly cold

 

[countrywench]

Yes to the school reunion .
Hating meeting old friends / workmates while shopping
Deff yes to be so bloody hot and sweaty all the time ! My make up just slides of my face
Not being able to push my 85 yr old mum to the shops in her wheelchair without sweating, huffing and being in pain .
Ugly fat , square shaped feet with cankles ..

 

[Lisa876]

Ditto on the school reunion and bumping into old acquaintances.
Ugh!

 

[countrywench]

Thank you Blossom for the list . I never thought of getting Windeze ! Got one now though !
Spoke to one of daughters , who lives a couple of hours away this morning . Got a few words out and promptly broke into tears Roflll .. Course she is on the other end asking me if I'm crying , then she starts ! And the pair of us are laughing and crying . No idea where it came from either Roflll .. Shocked the hell out of me as I'm not a cryer at all ..

Had a busy afternoon shift at work and didn't feel to bad at all seeing as I'm surviving on probably 500 calories ?
This evening I have just had 2 dry fried eggs , drizzled with Bovril while cooking , it's delicious believe me , and put them on a bed of Italian salad leaves . Scrummy !
So I now have a pack of chicken breast I intend to munch on while I'm reading through the days forums on here ..
Mindy
Xxxx

 

[blossom11]

Oh no I've been emotional too! Glad it was a good mix of crying and laughing though!! Here's for more laughing and less crying. Not long now Mindy take care of yourself and enjoy your chicken!! Lol!!!

 

[countrywench]

How are getting on blossom ?

 

[blossom11]

Good thanks Mindy. Just put a post on banders!

In summary the bariatric nurse called today. A really lovely woman who really put me at ease and I've lost 9.5lb in a week!! Yay!!!

Hope you're ok too?

 

[niccie]

Great loss in a week

 

[countrywench]

What a weight loss Blossom ! You must be feeling great about that !
Not long now ! This time next week it will be done and we will have a different life , a different path to follow and be free of being a food junky !

 

[countrywench]

Well I now have 4 days to my band fitting .. I keep wanting to pinch myself as its been a relatively quick journey from decision to op .
Over dinner one Sunday , with my mum , hubby , 2 daughters and I , the subject of surgery came up again .
Again I repeated I couldn't get anywhere with the NHS , but then Jessica , my youngest said
Why don't you pay for it yourself , I will give you £1,000 !
Then my other daughter Kelly joined in by offering another £1,000 !
My mum put her cutlery down with a bang , lol , and loudly stated that she didn't need her money and matched another £1,000 !
So I looked at Malc , my hubby , he said , it's up to you now ..
I said I would look into prices as I really thought it was out of my range and could have sworn that WLS was £8,000 - £10,000
After a few emails and phone calls I was so surprised to find out that it was actually £6,000 ! So I was half way there with the money .
It took me a few months to save the rest , Malc got all the overtime he could and I took extra hours at work .. It's funny what you can raise if you really have to ..

And here I am .
On the verge of a different life , an easier life , an awesome future !

Day 11 of the LSD
I can't say it's been easy , but I've found a steely resolve in me that I didn't think I had .
I can honestly say not one bad morsel had passed my lips . I have had 2 skinny lattes and a bowl of porridge , but I don't deem them as bad , I just needed them to get me through a busy day at work .
I'm trying to cope with extreme weakness . The last couple of days have really taken their toll on me . I have a semi manual job that on a normal day and my old diet , I could cope with . Last night , after a 10hr shift , I was so pleased to see my mobility scooter knowing it was my chariot that would whizz me home to the comfort of my bed with no effort ..

The weeing during the night is also exhausting ! Hauling my weak bulk out to the bathroom 5 times a night ( being escorted by the cat Alfie ) is also having an impact on me ..
Only 2 days at work ! Today I work till 1pm then I'm off to have my gray roots taken care of . Tomorrow I have a 9 hour shift and I'm done for 2 weeks !

Onwards and upwards !

Mindy
Xxxx

 

[blossom11]

Hi Mindy,

What a lovely family you have Mindy that's such a lovely story.

Hope the rest of your work days go well.

How many days have you taken off? I've gone for 10 and hoping that's enough!

Will be thinking of you on Monday X X

Take care X x